This mistake is unforgivable to self. Oh my...What have I done? I don't want to wreck your new relationship. Damn it, Amalina! You ought to apologize! I need to clarify everything to you that I mean nothing but to just tell you how much I miss you. I mean well and I didn't know that you're in an open relationship or attached or whatsoever you want to call it. I am seriously sane while sending that text to you. Up till now I have yet to receive reply from you and I don't expect to receive any.
Perhaps this is the thing that made me stay up the whole night without having the want to sleep. Not even the need to sleep. All I did was stare into space, into my dead phone by night and look out of the window. This is ridiculous.
Apart from this the other reason having to present myself a sleepless night is my council. I am having all thoughts about this new batch. Some are just great and some just isn't. Obviously in everything there's always the thorns among the roses and the worse among the better. Well, it's just the beginning and my expectation is high for them. It might sound harsh but it's for council's reputation. I'm on the journey of discovering new leaders. It's tough and I promise, I won't be bias.
My eye's heavy now. I can have a great sleep from now until 4pm. After which I got to bring that little kid to the library and some shopping needs to be done.
Loves!
MamaLemon(:
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♥A @ 07:53
Monday, April 4
Revived @ 18:12
I have no reasons having to neglect this little kid of mine here. Well, after so long I feel that i'm back to who I used to be. Not saying that i'm a changed person totally. Only with certain little things in life that was added or removed to spice up my life a little more. Less did I think about those desire of wanting to blog and to be online in MSN until recently, when someone actually asked for my msn address. It took me quite awhile to give it up. Well, now that i'm back with more routines, at least there's some of this little thing which enable me to spend my time wisely when i'm bored. Than having to be on Facebook all the time stalking people and going through pictures after pictures and trying to change to another display picture.
Life is damn mundane this holidays. What I know, i'm like being confined. To make it sound better, voluntarily confinement it is. This is a great time for me to be lapse from school assignments, council assignments also never ending conflicts everywhere. Simplicity isn't much pay off in Singapore. How I wish i'm in Chiang Mai during this confinement period than having to tell people i'm lazy yet again and again, when they ask me out. That's the best place to slack and wander your time off and the dishes, so simple yet appetising.
I applied for a part time job and i'm praying that i'll be called for interview. I need to change my life more and with perseverance and string will, I am going to make it. (;