I guess the time has came for me to finally let you go.
My heart hurts the moment I want to let you go.
But, it hurts me more when you don't mean your words.
It hurts me so much when you gave me all the possible excuses just to escape you own grave.
I'm standing strong and proud here saying that,

You're officially off. Please go and never come back.

You were so sweet before this but why must this happen so drastically?
Why must you go with her when you know that i'm always here for you?
Why must you make me leave you in this tragic way?
Why must I cry my hearts out for you?

Yes, I have still a lot of friends out there but to get someone like you...
IT TAKES A MILLION YEARS!

You were my clown.
You were my joy.
You were my happiness.
You were my light.
You were my smile.
You were everything for me.

I will never ever forget 26 February 2010.
Your name will always and forever be engraved in my heart.
I'm proud to say that, you are really not the typical type of guy.
Yes, even after what you did, I still dare to say that.
I had accepted the fact but can any girl out there come to me and say,
"heyy, my guy's so cool. he have the look, the humour and everything that a girl wants."
Importantly, you never ever hurt me when we're still together. Even till the day we end.

Loves!
MamaLemon(:
♥A @ 14:44

Today is the start of my new life. I will do my best to lead this new life well. With the help of my family members, I will definitely do well. Not forgetting my baby who's always been there for me and who always advise me not to act very rashly. I love you baby!

Loves!
MamaLemon(:
♥A @ 22:55

Rizwan, i'm officially missing you.
Really looking forward to meet you.
You are a very different guy i'd ever meet.
You really are different from any other typical guys.

Like I said, i'm letting people say what they want and shall not bother. They'll eventually shut up when they're tired. About that guy up there, yes he really is different from other guys. How I wish met him earlier in my life. Well, this is life, you'll eventually find someone you really adore at the later part of life. Anws, i'm estranged from my friends after my grandmother's demise. Sometimes they just couldn't understand how sad I am. The worse is, they don't even bother to ask if i'm okay and instead keep on having wild guesses about me. I'm not referring to all my friends. Some still are there when I need someone.

Loves!
MamaLemon(:
♥A @ 22:03

I'm really counting on getting a new phone for myself. How I wish I could get that dream phone of mine. Someone offered to get me the phone and yes, I shall just wait and see. I really hope to get it tmr. That's if, you hold onto your words. I took your word, better mean well. At least Satio is quite rare unlike iphone. (:

Sony Ericsson Satio,
you shall be mine in no time.

p/s: Bby, i love you more than you do! (;

Loves!
MamaLemon(:
♥A @ 23:40

I died on my blog for quite some time. Had been over at aunt's place after the demise of my grandmother. I tried my very best to be strong about it. Yes I did. However things doesn't go my way eversince. It ridiculous that shits happen to since 2nd February. Eqa's birthday party isn't good on my side as grandmother is admitted in the hospital in a coma condition. It's hard for me to look after my friend's heart and family's heart when this things happened. For a moment, I felt really lost. Only god knows how terrible I felt. The next day I got fired as I took an urgent leave. I thought telling someone, she would calm me down. Instead nothing came out. I was absolutely sad. A few days later, you doubted me about my grandmother. Do you know how sad I felt. But it's cool now. 2 days later, my grandma's condition got even worse. The doctor called us up to come over to the hospital as there's nth they could do. My family and I stayed up the whole night till her last breath. I felt proud having to be able to recite prayers to her ears. That's my very first time doing it. I was emotional, I know but I can't hold back my tears. Even dad can't held back his tears when grandma's being buried.

Apart from that, I felt that I have no friends with me. Yes there are some consoling me but some doesn't. For now, I shall not bother what people want to say to me, what people want to think of me and whatever they want to do. It's enough that all this while I had been looking after people's heart but they did nothing to me. All they care about is their show must go on. Did they ever once told me that, ''it's okay girl, you family needs you now and I understand you situation." No! Never did I hear this out from their mouth. To think back, what kind of people are they when they put me on a spotlight to make my own decision, without helping me out. Oh my, how pathetic I am having to do a good deed to people and they just dont appreciate it? Well, enough shits here.

Yes, I miss you very much bby. I just can't explain my love for you and how much I miss and love you. Let's savour it all and pull through all obstacles that visits us by. (:

Loves!
MamaLemon(:
♥A @ 16:50

Since the demise of my beloved grandmother, I had been sleeping at my aunt's place. Helping out anything I can. Life has been moving downstream this few days. Grandmother passed away, got fired and a lot of things to do. Nothing that I regret. Life still move on!

Loves!
MamaLemon(:
♥A @ 01:11

Your dismissal is a huge loss to the Mohayan's family. However, we feel it's the best thing than having to see you lying in the hospital over 5 days and still fighting and suffer very much. Although you might really want to see your grandchild, he apologise for not being able to attend your burial. He can't get his leave approved. We will all pray that your soul will rest in peace. Lastly, to all those who came and the never-ending condolences I want to thank you all from the bottom of my heart, on behalf of Mohayan's family.


♥A @ 23:21