I want to seriously apologise to you my dear gerl. I know that you already know the truth but do you know that i rather keep the truth than i let it out for i know that you will be extremely hurt. One important thing, you know that no guys are actually worth of our sadness thus, i keep it silent but my way alr show you all. For all the time you want to check my msgs, i allow but why not that night? Well i know how good you can be at times. I just want to look after your heart. You know that you are the only friend that i can ever trust. Not even my family members can get my trust. You are really someone whom god had made for me. He made us reunite so that we can take care of each other each and every day.





♥A @ 17:37

2009 is coming to an end in matter of days. This year is full of challenges for me. No matter what, I still managed to overcome all obstacles. This year is also a year which have a series of reuniting me and others. Well, i will expand more about this in my long blog post sometime later. Not today.

I'm just reminiscing the moment i had with my ex-boyfriends. All of them. Some are really sweet yet irritating and some are fucking idiot with no package at all. What more can I do when a guy controls my life and everyting I can and cannot do. Well, there are so many guys out there with different personalities. I just want someone who looks like Ariffin and have a personality of Sunshine. Sunshine is good looking but i want both of them that's why I chose this. (:

To make it even, I love Ariffin the most. No matter what had took place, it's just the way he made me smile, laugh and feel sad, disappointed or angry, that made me love him the way I loved him. He's the only guy who know me in and out and felt my greatest love. Who knows the way i cry, laugh, smile and when I feel nervous. He's the only one who know how I had changed from over the years. But, things are not going my way. I had to stop i all.

Boy, you are the one who made me delete your number.
You forget all about me.
You came to me when you are in trouble.
You never appreciate me.
You took me for granted.
You make me became a changed person.
It's all because of you, all this are happening now.

No matter what, even if I found yur replacement, he will never get to feel my love like the way I loved you. You are my light in the dark.You know how much I love you?

Loves!
MamaLemon(:
♥A @ 20:20

When is the real payday? I am superduper confused. Some say today, some say sometime this week. Some received their pay some have yet to receive and make a total big fuss about not getting it and call people askng about their pay. For god sake, calm down and refer to the manager! Disturb my beauty sleep. My pay isn't that much though. Afterall, working for 7 days and get around 400+? To think about my family, i don't know how much will i be left. I must give some to my family, not to help them but as a form of gift. Enough of pay day. Staff outing is still unconfirmed. Maybe part timers are not invited? Who cares.

You left me hanging and i am on my wits end. Now that you know my answer to your question, you better be true to me. I don't even wish to know the truth from other people or even myself. I want the truth to be coming from you. Only your identification card can prove everything about you. Let me just say this, i miss having you in my life, i miss how i used to inform you about my whereabous and yes, i miss the way you make me smile.

Loves!
MamaLemon(:
♥A @ 10:49

Dear bitch,
Thanks for staying with me through my ups and downs of life. I know its hard for you to understand me at times and at times we tend to have different perception about something. However, you are still the best. No one can ever replace you. Only you know the devil and angel side of me. You are my best bitch ever! I love you, Nur Azwani!

For you:
Thanks for betraying my precious trust. The truth might not come directly from you. Thanks to her i know who you really are. You are just someone who pretends to be somebody and turn around your story which does not sync with your previous stories. Next time, you want to lie and create story, prepare a few storyboard or you'll be living in the world of your own lie and your story line will be in a mess. Total mess. I want to wish you the best of luck in you lying world!

Pay day is coming! Just in time with Christmas sale and Year End sale! Family is my top priority, obviously! After that then can i only shop with my bitch up there!

Loves!
MamaLemon(:

♥A @ 22:56

It came to a point that i must highlight how bias the refree for the football match of SEA Games. His biasness can really be seen and Young Lions just keep pn getting yellow card. Today's match, one of the Laotian should get red card but he managed to flee off without even getting a yellow card. How terrible can this refree be? If i have the authority to sue this kind of refree, i would already did. Not just because of Young Lions just keep on getting yellow card. It's just that these refrees doesn't come into terms with the rule of the games. Yes, he can foul the players and so on. But, please be fair to both parties. Even if you're on favour for one of the team.

However, Young Lions played the best game today! I super love the way they defend the ball, refraining the Laotian to score a goal. Not till the 80th minute or so, when Laos clinched their first goal. Poor Hyrul got injured and the man who injured him didn't get penalise. Safuwan and Afiq got injured too. Safuwan received 3 yellow card so far and i can tell these youngest Young Lion batch are really good and they can and will maintain these quality and with more trainings, they are able to go further.

You woke me up in the morning with three miss calls before the fourth call. You just won't give up calling me until i pick up your call. This shows how sincere you are and you just love my morning voice. ^_^

Loves!
MamaLemon(:

♥A @ 18:53

I am fucktrated with my life! Having to be a hypocrite and not working on weekdays. How un can my life be right? I am just lazing around at home or meeting my g other than working on weekends. How boring can it get? What's worse is i have to face you and treating you as if i don't know you. I really hate it that way and sometimes i couldn't help myself but to talk to you, especially ytd. I also couldn't help myself to stop thinking of you and cry upon reflecting on what had happen. Boy you know how to turn your words and put the blame solely on me. How irresponsible can you be? I am just an ordinary girl who tend to do mistake. But when you say i am a problem to you, you know just how much i am affected and how much I am disappointed in you. If you think I am a problem to you, boy, you are 10 times a problem to me. Luckily i have my gf on my side. To think about my family being by my side when this matter rise, i am wrong. They just can't be discussed with. Not even my parents, siblings and aunties.

I am just pissed off when i share my story to someone and you will say "oh you one pathetic chap are in some trouble", when we are having a family storytrlling session. This just means that i can't tell you my story and i won't dare tell you ever again. Back at my workplace, if i were to know who breathe a word about what i informed them, you better watch out! The most i will have a slow fight with you. You are not making things work on my side, instead, things are getting worse. And, fancy you saying 'hi' to me upon seeing me at the stairs. Those smiles on my face for you are fake!

Loves!
MamaLemon(:
♥A @ 22:14

After 8 days of silence, here i am! It's been tough for me to blog and update my facebook nowadays. Wani, my gf, is always updating it for me. Thanks gerl. Pdhl, kau ade agenda laen. That's between us yup? Anws, work is not tiring but problems are always there. Well, problems are never-ending. True? It's how i act to put up with all these shits. I'm through you and my life is picking up again. Thanks so much for saying me a selfish and doing a two-way traffic. You are just one guy who acts to be a noble guy. In this new era, no guy like you can stay for long. If you choose to treat me like that, so be it. Although my working environment is very much affected, i'm perfectly fine to be a hypocrite just for you. Only you, nobody else.

My Haikal has been behaving superduper sweet. Gerl, klau ade jodoh la kn...hehe. *inside agenda*. My life changes since i know you. Thanks boy, for changing my life. Anws, this few weekdays have been out with my gf, Wani, and came home very very very late at night. Always catch the last bus and get nag by parents. For once, i'm 17 and i know how to take care of myself. I have been working very hard on weekends and at least let me enjoy my weekdays, for as long as i can. It's really tiring lazing around at home doing nothing. How i wish..Forget it!

Loves!
MamaLemon(:

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♥A @ 00:28

Friday is the start of my new life. It is when i started working at Fidgets. I was super shock with the loas i need to clear. Though it is a public holiday, i sacrificed my holiday. After work went to Ami's place as my family are gathering there. After which had a chatting session then off to Nenek's house at Woodlands. There, we had a cake cutting session as it was Mak Busu's birthday and mine is on Saturday! Had photo taking session too. I'm in love with Darwin! (:

My cake was cut at 12 midnight! Finally i'm 17 baby! Saturday, my birthday, i was working too. Some wished me and kitchen crew kind of sang birthday song to me. Only the last line. But the thought that counts yea! I super love Saturday and Sunday as it was the day i'm not really packed. Especially on Sunday, i can laugh around and joke around and get bullied by Zul and Helmi the two guy who is in the F&B line with me. Two guys with 2 different personalities. They can drive me crazy at times. Now i'm missing work!

Never did i expect love triangle to happen at my current work. Came to know about the news, i was super shock. Never ever i expect such things will happen. Untill now, i'm missing my work. The pay is rather high. Most sales and f&b line won't be generous to give such pay. Problems do occur anwhere even here. Lucky me, i'm not much affected. (: Pictures will be uploaded soon i hope. Too busy to update my blog and facebook.

Loves!
MamaLemon(:
♥A @ 18:09