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28 November

"♥Amalina!"

Wishes!

Fufilled!
Champion for Prove IT! competition
New Friends
Work
Pooh bear
Unfufilled!
Part time work
DSLR Camera
Cornrow hairstyle
Driving License

Gossips!

Escapades!

Jukebox!

Music Playlist at MixPod.com

Creditorial

Sunday, August 30

Teacher's Day preparation @ 16:38

Well, i'm back after a few days off from blogging world! I was actually down with cleaning up the mess in my room. A lot of things need to be done yea. Anws, what's going to be the gift for ur teacher? As for me, i'm going to bake something for them. Hopefully it turns out well. Or else, there goes my effort. I'll start baking at night obviously, after my night prayer. (:

I guess, that's about it for today. Ramadhan is entering the 2nd phase. (:

All the best people! I have been praying and hoping that my period will be 'postponed' this month, so i can fulfill my 1 month of fasting.

Loves!
Amalina(:

♥A @ 16:38

Tuesday, August 25

Thoughtful @ 13:44

Today no paper so study at home for Chemistry paper. The truth is, i'd been strumming the guitar, singing and finding details on the driving lesson. Too much thing running through my mind at 1 time. Studies too, do come by my mind the whole time. I just need time off but i can't. I guess, i need to organise my mind properly and put up with this shitty feeling.

Today is a very weird day for me i can say. My brother woke me up for pre-dawn meal. He waited till i'm up and left the room. I told mum i don't want to wake up for pre-dawn meal as i'm very full last night and i'm afraid that i might vomit again. That really sucks yea. Then i woke up at 10am and watched malay drama. It's damn good! Sadly, only if im home in the morning then only can i watch it. Sent Atiqah her stuffs and my eye was glued to a piece of paper on my printer.

It's a lyric but with the number chords to the song. Well, that's how i got into the strumming today. I'm going to search online for such chords (i can't read alphabetical chords) for me to strum, distress, and practice. First time into guitars. Dad heard me strummed just now. (:

I'd made up my mind that when i turn 18, i'm going for my driving lesson. I'm so into it. The cost, i don't mind for what i know, i'll be working end of this year which will still be continued until next year. (part time job i mean) At least, i can 'waste' my time and still got paid while waiting for my results and who's not working when u got into a tertiary education. Majority are working right? Let what people goign to say, but i made up my mind and no one can change it. It's only me, myself and I who's going to make my dreams into reality!

For my studies, i'm going to study with my scandals! Oh well, we'd been panning but nth came up la. No matter what, i'm going to study(alone or in groups). For my O levels and not Prelims. So far for my prelim exam, i can say that i can fair for English, Geography and Social Studies. Hopefully it's true. For Math, i'd screw it up! XD

Well, i shall stop it here! No more posts about Ariffin as i had made up my mind that i'm not going to bother about relationships. Oh well, let me make myself clear, i had think through and going to move on with life. I'm only supporting him to be a changed, better person. Getting back with him is IMPOSSIBLE. What i can do for now is to just treat him normally. Actually i'd been treating him likewise since last week. ^_^ Fine! I'm showering now. XD

Loves!
MamaLemon(:

♥A @ 13:44

Sunday, August 23

Be strong! @ 14:55

Noodles to break my fast ytd. 8.15pm went for night prayer with mum, grand ma and grand dad. 11pm had my supper. Noodles again. Predawn meal, noodles again. Went to bed at 5.30am. Mum woke me up for morning prayer but then, my stomach feels like exploding! Told mum, i'm not praying. I can't imagine how things will be if i were to wake up then and pray. (not saying that praying will make me feel worse)

At 10am in the morning, my stomach started to be extremely unbearable. Went to the toliet and attend to mature's call. Instead, i vomitted. What came out is noodles and vegetebles. I know it's digusting. Vomitted for a solid 5 mins and wash up to go back to bed to rest. By then, i was already shivering. Mum rub my stomach with baby oil. Went to sleep and now, i still feel like my stomach's going to explode anytime.

All the vomittings was unintended and so, my fasting is not affected. I'm going to stand the pain through out the day. If it's getting worse after breaking fast, i'm not going for night prayer tonight. Tmr's Math P1 and Social Studies. In the afternoon, English O level oral. All the best to everyone!

Loves!
MamaLemon(:

♥A @ 14:55

Friday, August 21

Happy Fasting! @ 22:08

Happy Fasting to all Muslims around the world.

Hope this year's Ramadhan month will be a better one for everyone.

Nownow, this is too fast can? It's as if only ytd's 2009. Now, it's alr fasting month. 1 month from now it's Hari Raya. I guess celebration will be totally different this year. Exams coming up la! Must study. 1st few days excuse can. After that study and munch those cookies i will bake.

Planned to bake my all time favourite, Pineapple Tart and family's all time favourite, Butter Cake this year. That is what i can manage this year. Other than that, my sisters will be doing. Orders anyone? LOL!

Hari Raya's outfit is left 1/2 to go only. I'm going to have a different style this year yea. Don't be shocked when u see a different Siti Nur Amalina on 21st September 2009. (or maybe 22nd) It's not confirmed as yet but it's on my mind alr.

So sleepy now. Later must wake up for pre-dawn meal. I guess at 5.30am? I'm not sure myself too. Now no more late night chat, handphones will be left unattended at home for as long as it can be. Will only extertain msgs from Ariffin, classmates and Wan. Others, i'm sorry if i don't reply. Need to talk to me? Don't disturb me currently. Studying mode!

Loves!

MamaLemon(:

Labels: he is a skater

♥A @ 22:08

Wake up call @ 20:10

Alright people! Amalina had finally wake up from her deep sleep. Actually i had woke up so long ago but after what Mdm Siti commented on me just now, i seriously took the time to think through. Otw home and otw to meet Ariffin. Coursework need to be edited!

As usual, he had to wait for me for a couple of hours. Weekdays very difficult for me to promise him a time. I'll keep bringing the time forward and and dragged the whole meeting time. Luckily he's understanding. I really hate it to make people wait for me.

Just now met him for an hour. I don't mind meeting him for that short period of time. What's more, i'm too tired and my brain's not functioning well. It'd went for a long rest since it was raining just now. He even noticed that i looked stress up and not being myself. I don't notice it. Whatever it is, he's my only past who understand me really extremely well.

I just love the way he treat me. (: Obviously i treat him very well. Can't be treating him coldly. If that's the case, i won't bother contacting and meeting him. We know very well our feeling towards each other. But let time tell. I want to take this opportunity to tell everyone who had misunderstood our relation.

We used to be tgt 3 years
ago.
We shared our life
before.
Now we are just normal
friends.
Although we are like
couples,
we are actually not.
We just love the way we treat each other
now.

Ariffin, i demand us to meet somtime next week! I can't wait for too lonf as i am already starting to miss my psp. Too hooked up with God Of War, till i sacrifice my life, by lending u my psp. Take care of my baby as though it's ur baby!

Loves!

MamaLemon(:

Labels: he snatched my life

♥A @ 20:10

Thursday, August 20

Spills! @ 22:44

Knock the 't' of the can't.

Fuck! Damn! Shit! My coffee just spilled on my laptop. I was arranging my stuffs on this computer table when that cup of coffee seems to be lifted up and spill it's content. Luckily only a little bit. It'd been wiped and it's doing fine! Sorry baby. ):

Anws, Tuesday met Ariffin and had a great time tgt. That's when we fight, laugh, kept silent and he 'sulk'. Seriously speaking, he's an extraodinary guy. Though i used to be angry with him, now i'm trying to keep my cool and just treat him well, even better than before. (that's what he told me) Tmr will be meeting him again. Hopefully earlier as tmr, after the 2 papers, must meet Mdm Siti to print out our final coursework. Currently i'm touching up on my Part A. Must be better than my Part B.

I better start rushing through my work and return to my revision. Might be sleeping extremely late tonight. Worst, not sleeping at all. Whatever it is, i'm going to do my best! Though it's only prelim, i need to give my best shot.

Here's some random stuffs:
-Mdm Nisha is sending me for Cadet Inspector course.
-I got B3 for my Malay O Level result
-I am so going to retake my Malay.
-Ariffin is my friend. I swear!

Loves!
MamaLemon(:

♥A @ 22:44

Monday, August 17

Random @ 16:58

Here's my super random post! Didn't plan to blog today as i'm packed with a lot of stuffs and obviously very tired. I blogged because my mind can't be focused to edit my F&N work. Work has been piling and my rate is fine for time being. Still no sense of urgency. Fir goodness sake Amalina! It's ur O level year this year! Please concentrate and be focused!

Anws, ytd was otp with him till very very very extremely late! Had a good chat after a day's quarrel and yes! We're meeting again tmr! How cool is that. XD He's again the same reaction i'm excited to meet u kind of reaction. But ytd was the most sweetest moment i'd ever had otp with him. Both were just being very sweet. So sweet! lol! gtg!

Loves!
MamaLemon(:

♥A @ 16:58

Sunday, August 16

Cinta Ini Membunuhku @ 17:22

Cinta Ini Membunuhku- D Masiv

Kau membuat ku berantakan

Kau membuat ku tak karuan

Kau membuat ku tak berdaya

Kau menolak kuAcuhkan diriku

* Bagaimna caranya untuk

Meruntuhkan kerasnya hati mu

Kusadari...Ku tak sempurna...

Ku tak seperti...

Yang Kau inginkan..

Kau hancurkan aku dengan sikapmu

Kau sadarkah kau,

Kau telah menyakiti ku

Lelah hati ini meyakinkanmu

Cinta ini membunuhku

Back To *

This song is specially for Khairul Ariffin. After listening to the song the whole night ytd, the lyrics really illustrates my situation now. I just don't know what's the next thing i could do. But please, i don't want this to happen. I know my mistake and please don't go on like this. I just want us to have a good friendship and nth more. Like i said, i ain't going to put hopes on us getting back tgt. That's the truth and i just want u to be happy with that girl ure going after. I'm always here for u to seek help. If ur friends doesn't support u, i will always here.

Good news, as i'm blogging about this, he texted me asking me to call him. (:

Loves!

MamaLemon(:

♥A @ 17:22

Friday, August 14

Love You @ 22:59

14 August 2009 marks the day we met. It was a very memorable and unforgettable day for me. As usual, when i have plans on Friday, mum will always cause all the unnecessary inconvenience. Decided to borrow Ateeq's clothes but my style is superbly different. Thank god when i was about to cry, mum reached home. Went home and get ready. Thanks Ateeq for managing to put up with my rushness. (:

Then met Ariffin, at Woodlands. Waited for him for 15 minutes i guess. Fret not. He waited for me for over 2 hours. Sorry dear, it was unplanned. Walked with him and yes, it's my first time treating a guy. This shows how much i love u! *coughs*

His first few comments was:

-Your voice sound mature which differ from urself

-You look like a 12 year old kid.

Talked and i made my first move to smack his butt. Since he always disturb me, consider it as a revenge! Then, he did the same too. I was stunned. Then he grabbed me by my neck. My reaction was awkward!

Something cropped up and we met for an hour. We had the greatest time together. His hugs, kisses and smile made me feel comfortable with him. It's just a feeling that i want to encounter with everyone. But only towards him and my school mates. We crapped a lot. He's just super super super extremely sweet can? XD

While crossing the road to wait for the bus to go to Admiralty, he grabbed my hand and hold my hand. I was stunned as it was very sudden and i don't know how to react. I even said, 'heyy, i feel like being ur sister!" He laughed and disturbed me.

On the bus, on the way to Admiralty, we hold on to each other's hand. We're just like couple. No worries, if we were to be tgt, i'll be happy. If not, i don't mind. As long as he's happy, I will be happy. I know his situation. He also mentioned that, "only u understand me very well." I hope it's really true.

To wrap up: I won't forget today. I won't forget the kisses, hugs, the way u grab my hand on the road and the way u asked for a last hug in the bus. Though i was a little disappointed, i'm happy as we managed to fully utilised the 1hour +- time we had. I'll be waiting for the next meet. Rmb, i'm always here for u. (:

p/s: This is him, the one whom i love for 3 years and the feeling doesn't seem to fade. Despite what had happened, i still love him and the feeling seem to grow now. I'll leave it all to Allah. Not hoping or i won't be helping him.

Loves!

MamaLemon(:

Labels: I love Khairul Ariffin

♥A @ 22:59

Thursday, August 13

hopes @ 01:01

To hope for somthing is good. But to put high hope on something u think is impossible is very risky. I'm not hoping. Seriously i'm not hoping but if it were to happen, i'll let it happen. Chatted for an extremely long time with Ariffin, my ex which i love the most. This is what i can't forget...

Me: Heyy, i'm seriously not hoping ok.
Him: But, what if there is a chance for it to happen?
Me: mmm...If there is a chance, i'll let it happen la.
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Him: I love u!
Me: *stoned*

I'm not treating u with any specialities. How i treat u is how i treat others. U don't have to feel bad for what had happened. Everything happen for a reason. As ur ex, as ur friend, as ur lover, i'll try my best to make u happy. I'll do what it takes for me to make u happy. Even if i need to console the girl for u, i'd do ok. (:

This is just something i could do to tell u that i'm happy. But if ur relationship might not work out, please, don't be shy or afraid to come back to me. Like i always said, i'm always here for u. Don't bother what people say. If u can accept her for who she is, go ahead. I know ure glad having to met me in ur life. I'm just helping u. Trying to cheer u up. Trying to make everything possible for u. Trust me, i don't want to see u at a losing end.

If u fail, cheer up. U do have me still. I love u. My love for u won't change and never will it. It's been 3 years since we known each other and i just want our friendship to be good. We're both at fault during our seperation time. Both were just too childish at that point of time. Now that i know u treasured me, i'm happy. No matter what u did to me, i'd forgive u and i will still continue to love u. May this Friday be a great one for us! (:

Loves!
MamaLemon(:

♥A @ 01:01

Tuesday, August 11

Born of a new star @ 22:35

Finally, the wait has ended! The music industry has gave birth to a new star! I can say she's rather low profile and i really love her voice. She'll be my inspiration. However, the fact that Hydir got eliminated in during the semi-finals made me want to cry. He is better that Aliff. From my point of view. But, it's time for the music industry to give birth to a female singer, after a few years of male singers. Too many alr. (: All the best in all u do Sarah Aqillah! I love ur voice and u're my inspiration from now onwards!

1 lie will lead us to create even more lie.

Loves!
MamaLemon(:

♥A @ 22:35

Monday, August 10

Refreshed! @ 23:27

Hello people! I'm back feeling fresh! Today was a very random day for me. It's superbly random! Went out to meet Adi in the noon and then slacked for a while. Since he have family plan, i decided to meet Nana. She planned to go out as she feels bored too.

Met at 6pm. Planned to trained to Bugis but instead alighted at Queenstown. Headed to Queesnway Shopping Centre i guess. There we went aroung to look for Nana's running shoe. Found! (: But, along the way, there's this group of guys whom we 'ran into' quite a few times in the centre. It's frustrating and Nana start to feel insecure.

Headed to IKEA! Created a play. Haha! That's my house, that's my kitchen! ^_^ Now feeling tired and frustrated and irritated. Sleepy. My phone kept on ringing and my cousin kept on msging me about a damn thing! It's really irritating. Before sleeping, i might be on the phone. Before everything, i need to take my shower now!

Loves!

MamaLemon(:

♥A @ 23:27

Sunday, August 9

Hate @ 23:28

Should i start to hate guys? Let me rephrase myself. Should i refrain myself from fancing guys? I just find guys are smn who only come to a girl when they are in need. Lust for example. To satisfy their lust, they go to a girl. Once they'd done it, they leave the girl and come back to her when he needs her again. The cycle will continue.

Though not all guys are like this. But, the minorities are always seen all around. I just want these guys to stop doing all these. Practice it with only 1 person. Not more than that. Though he is single. It's not good to practice it with more than 1 girl. U're just playing with the girl's feeling. It really hurts when u do all this but not asking the girl to be ur partner. I don't want to see this trend, sadly, it's all around.

He was asked to buy lemon!

Happy 44th Birthday Singapore!
Happy National Day people!

Loves!
MamaLemon(:

♥A @ 23:28

Saturday, August 8

start a new! @ 20:37

Saturday marks the end of my sufferings and tiredness. Tmr i might be going out. The most i will just stay home and do my piling homeworks. I really need discipline. Someone pls help me. I'm so damn tired and lazy lately. I guess it's time for me to really start doing my timetable and follow it strictly. Must head to the gym often. I don't mind going alone.

I just want my life to be better. I want to stick to 1. I think i found my Mr Right. On the other hand, i'm not ready to be in a relationship. I don't want to be attached before finishing my O level. Unless i found a guy who is strict. Only for towards my studies. He must be understanding and MUST NOT control me, then only will i consider being with him.

Loves!
MamaLemon(:

♥A @ 20:37

Thursday, August 6

Atiqah Dasuki (: @ 23:17

Happy 17th Birthday to Atiqah Bte Dasuki aka Ateeq!
May all ur wishes come true.

p/s: i'm sorry for wishing u quite late. I was superbly busy. Tmr will hug u k?

Your one and only,
Miss Smile(:

♥A @ 23:17

Sick @ 00:41

It's been 2 days since i step into school. My condition is worsening. I thought by taking those medication prescribed to me last week will make me feel better. But i'm wrong! Instead i'm getting worse. My flu/running nose is getting worse. It came to point where i go everywhere with this whole packet of tissue. Those in bulk. That's it!

Ytd was very busy for me. I wasn't well so didn't go to school as it's better for me to be home. In the afternoon, i accompanied mum to St Luke's Hospital to visit great granny. I need to accompany her. Went home an hour later. Send sis to clinic. She was then refered to hospital. Suspected APPENDIX. Was in hospital from 2pm to 2am. 12 hours inclusive of the transfering of hospital and waiting time to get a ward/bed.

Today, very very sick. Can't even get up in the morning. Rested at granny's place. Then one after another keep on calling me. Great granny need to be sent to the hospital. So i need to inform mum. Went down to NUH to inform her and went home with her too. It's been a very tiring and sick-ing day/week for me. Weekend will be even tired-er!

Loves!
MamaLemon(:

Labels: this feeling sucks

♥A @ 00:41

Monday, August 3

Debate @ 18:39

The malay debate last night was Great! Superb! Wonderful! I simply love it. Watching it engages me and i was the only one watching and laughing and scolding. ^_^
The motion was very challenging and the feedbacks given is good for everyone's knowledge!

Debated in school before. For the very first time in my life, join this activity. I'm just interested and the lust of wanting to try is just there. I know i'm easily interested in an activity. Within a split second, i'm interested in Kayaking, the next interested in Wakeborading and the next debate. I'm an 'interester' i can say! XD

Having to like and want to try doesn't harm but time must be managed wisely! I have commitments to do. Towards my families, studies, in relationships too. I have many different role to play and i am managing it very very very well. Though at times I face challenges. But, Heyy! this is a phase in my life yea?

My dear seem busy today. No matter what, we'll stay tgt through the ups and downs. I'm very sure that we'll be able to pull through! (:

Challenges is the stepping stones to SUCCESS!

Loves!
MamaLemon(:

♥A @ 18:39

Sunday, August 2

Love @ 17:52

Love is very pure.

Love is hurtless.

Love is blind.

Love conquers all.

What else about love? Definition differs to different individuals. Love shouldn't be hurting both parties. Love can only happen with the permission of both parties. Love is fair. Love can never be vague nor fake. Love is the one thing that most people want to experience in life. Everyone wants to be happy with love and not hurt.

When love starts, bothe parties should comply to each other's wish. No force should occur. Everything require both parties's consent. Force should never happen. This will only destroy the relationship. Love should be filled with happiness and jokes. Not tears and quarrels.

Even untill now, i just don't understand why some guys still force their girlfriend to do some stuffs. It could be about meeting him, calling him, informing him where ever she is or even doing sex with him. This is really crap. I can tell u for sure it's a crap. Sex don't determine happiness.

I just hope that guys will really think deeply before asking what he wants. Not all guys though. But still, girls, look after urself. Don't be their victim. Eventhough u love him very much, it doesn't mean that u need to do what he ask u to.

I learnt a lot from all my friends and my experiences. Too much happened to me this year and i just hope next year will be better. I hope so. Now my main focus is O level. I heard a lot of nasty comments. Although it's just O level, i still need to do my very best. This determine my next step. I don't want to be at a losing end and crying while the others are celebrating their winning. My heart is very clear now. No to love and yes to study. (:

Loves!
MamaLemon(:

♥A @ 17:52

Saturday, August 1

Coincidence @ 22:18

Great news at 1.30pm. Thanks Ateeq for tolerating my scaredness! XD This means, next week is so going to be a girl's day out! Yea! Finally 4N malay girls reuniting. Hope all can turn up!

Me and Ateeq wants to go Wisma to send her uniform. Me text Khai and Nana the god news. Nana replied and also said that she's shopping alone at Bugis! From there, we decided to meet. Had brunch outside of National Library. Romantic scene. Under some random tree with 'waterfall' and people grazing around. Oh! Oh! Oh! Sweet romantic background music! There was a fair there and i enjoyed the singing! (;

Bus-ed home and chatted non-stop in the bus! Great catching up! I wonder how will next Friday be...Chaotic giler! 3 days away from school and went out to the city. Big headache! From 0 people to 100+ people! :P

Getting my shower now. Thank god this internet connection is doing just fine whenever i want to check my mails and blogging! I miss my school and i have 1 more day to finish up my homeworks! Rest too much alr! Too much fats now! XD

Loves!
MamaLemon(:

♥A @ 22:18

Shocked @ 00:40

Watched Gubra at Suria just now. Then it was an advertisement on an interview with the director of the film or the producer if i rmb correctly. I wasn't aware why the sudden 'pop out' of the story again. I got to know Yasmin Ahmad, if i were to spell it correctly, had passed away last Friday. She's not snobbish and very low profile. I'm so going to learn from her. She produce all her movies not because of Fame or Name.

At first, the story was nothing but nothing. I didn't like it at all. But after watching the interview, I understand her motive. She's very successful but that's not what she wants. She just wants the feelings she had put in producing her moives, will straight be embed in viewer's heart. It did on me! hehe.

I've on in front of this laptop from noon till now, 0046, checking my mails, updating my facebook a/c. Going down to Pastamania West Mall's outlet with Ateeq tmr. Finger's crossed! I want the best out of tmr.

My dear is sound asleep now...He's been having a hard and tiring day today perhaps? His feelings so true that i'd fall for him. hehe. Love u bi!

I guess, i should be doing Geography worksheets and organise my study timetable too. Received exam timetable. It's a total mess! Should have organise it properly. 4E and 5N's syllabus is sooooo veryvery, i really mean veryvery different!

Loves,
MamaLemon(:

♥A @ 00:40