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MamaLemon(:
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28 November
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Champion for Prove IT! competition
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Tuesday, January 27
scar-ry days @ 23:28
Where on Earth had i been? let me answer this question.Firstly,
Dad's been on the com for a long time. thus, i don't get the time to use it.
Secondly,
I've been going out in the morning and came home only at night. distress+studying.
Thirdly,
Lot's of work need to be done.
Lastly,
I've been thinking about sth so much that i feel like changing myself and i want to be isolated for the time being.
Life has been good and bad for me. CONSISTENTLY. have been doing great in studies and i will start to follow my timetable from Monday onwards. went out with aunt and cousin on Saturday and on Sunday with friends. Thanks for making me laugh like really laugh after knowing that i'm quite out of place a moment in time. Sometimes it came to my mind that being a loner is the best medicine. for now, that's the best for me.
I know that it's weird for me but things can't really go my way at times. what i really want to achieve by the end of this week, is to be free from any ties and to be the most happiest person for the week. that's my short term goal and i want to stop studying with anybody. i prefer studying on my own and i want that to happen.
Having to be controlled doesn't solve anthing, it only make things complicated. i want to be SINGLE for as long as i can be. my heart is only for my one and only Sunshine. He did text me 2 days ago but i wasn't aware. sadly, he didn't text me eversince. I love him very much and i will do anything for him, but there's a limit to everthing i did. Sacrificing for my loved ones is one of the thing i should do. It's a must.
I love you very much Sunshine!
Loves!
MamaLemon(:
Labels: what is love?
♥A @ 23:28
Wednesday, January 21
Where's Sunshine? @ 20:15
I am officially missing Hafiz, my studymate. miss studying with him, the craps he'd give me, the way he made smile, laugh and the way he made me become so blur. i enjoy his company and i am still studying. not that i don't, but i do. i am progressing in my F&N and i'm revising as stated. overally, i miss him.
Sunshine. where is Sunshine? he's hidden somewhere in Jurong Island. that's where he's attached to for his 3rd year in SP. i do miss him but why should i wait and torture myself into a relationship that's impossible. if it were to be possible, i'll wait for that moment. even if there is, it's going to be a long time. i can't contact him. i don't know how on Earth i can contact him. tried sms-ing, calling and leaving offline msgs for him. but to no avail, none of that was answered/replied. tired of that, i chose to stop fretting about it.
For now, i'm going with the flow and i'm not attached to any serious friendship relatioship. no close friends as yet and i'm still surviving! An achievement made. i'm trying my best to keep myself occupied with school work, CCA and my studymate, Hafiz. he's the only one i have for the time being othere than Evann. the others, i'm just wih them during school hours. after school hours, we communicate only when necessary. i really noticed a change in my life now. more organised and more focus.
Tired from the NPCC training. Endure! that's what i learn from my 4 years in NPCC. Endure, and u'll be satisfied with the result! need to brush up on my comands and more.
Loves!
MamaLemon(:
Labels: endurance is the least i could do
♥A @ 20:15
Monday, January 19
Motivated @ 21:35
By Popular Demand!! i began this week with a great start and a fresh start. after the talk last week and after studying with Hafiz, i felt so motivated to study and i will try my best to study. no matter what. unless i'm not in the mood. why force when u have no interest? that's my mentality now. i won't bother to force anyone or myself to do sth. that's naturally me. (:
though starting my week with a smile it doesn't mean there's no stones for me to jump over. wasn't quite happy with some people just now. never do, it's fine. the least u could do i to appreciate and keep your comments to urself. u don't know what troubles did the person went through doing that. thanks to some people too, i felt happy when they calm me down. thank you!
APPRECIATE!
i want to achieve 1 r 2 for all of my subject for O Level. i am going to work towards it from today onwards. i'll be doing my revision timtable later and this time i am going to make sure that i'll follow the timetable and i'll do that timetable. i don't want to procstinate about anything anymore. it wil only lead me to my failure not my success.
Don't PROCASTINATE!
I CAN DO ANYTHING
I can do anything
I set my mind to.
I can make dreams happen
By the things that i do.
Thinking positively no matter what,
Today and everyday.
For it's all in how I look at things
And what's put into play.
I can do anything
In this journey called LIFE.
Laugh, Live, Celebrate...
Soar to new heights.
For the world seems a better place
When i seize each new day
And as I journey, I'll remember:
Happiness comes most
to those who give it away.
So i'll look forward to each adventure
and listen to my heart,
Follow my goals and do my part.
Taking joy in today for it's mine to explore;
For i can do anything
when i let my dreams soar.
Loves!
MamaLemon(:
Labels: Success is a journey not a destination
♥A @ 21:35
Saturday, January 17
studying mode @ 20:42
i've started with my studying and revising. but not too much. only when i feel like it. Grabbing the A's is possible for me if i work hard towards it. although people might think i'm dreaming too much but, it's my life. i know i'll be dissapointed if i can't achieve that goal but i must push myself to study. i'll only do my TYS when O levelis coming. other than that, i'll only do worksheets and any form of practises.My Sunday morning will be in the gym room with Tikos. she'll force me to go if i don't feel like it. but sometimes i'll feel really tired and i must tell her that i don't wish to go. but i must compensate the time loss so my effort won't go to drain. my weight increase by 4kg and my height increase by 1cm. it's possible for me to lose my weight. i'll try to go on a diet and i'll go to the gym every week. i must be very discipline about this in order to achieve my goal/aim/dream.
my goal for today:
-finish off f&n Task Anyalysis(3 page)
-go to sleep by 12am
Loves!
MamaLemon(:
Labels: ImPossible
♥A @ 20:42
Horoscope @ 11:07
Today, everyone around is feeling fine and in the mood for good times. Everywhere you go, you'll hear laughter, and it will be impossible not to join in and have a good time. This is a great time to get your different social circles all in one room together -- introductions need to be made. Having all of your worlds collide won't be stressful, it will be very rewarding. There is a small world connection that you need to know about. Some folks have a juicy history.Alright, i'm out to study. Have been feeling tired and wasn't allowed to go NP today. imagine if i go NP today, feeling very tierd and cranky. anws, i'm not doing anything there also. it's better if i go study and wake up a little late. (:
Loves!
MamaLemon(:
♥A @ 11:07
Wednesday, January 14
Horoscope @ 20:56
Today you'll have the opportunity to team up with someone who balances out your skills -- grab it! Sure, this person might not be your cup of tea, but minor personality clashes are nothing compared to the amount of progress you two can make if you put your heads together. Two heads are always better than one, and you are currently in a phase of your life when you are ready to collaborate and share the spotlight. Others may drive you crazy, but they can also drive you to success.Loves!
MamaLemon(:
Labels: Pray before you study
♥A @ 20:56
Tuesday, January 13
What you say is what you get @ 20:53
Today's Super Teen course was SUPERBLY great. those who didn't attend the course would feel the loss they had. either they study or they don't i don't care. but, if they never get the right technique to study, they still can't move on. this course is seriously great and beneficial. i won't say much about the course. It's SUPERBLY great.
i think this is a spider diagram or sth.
credits to either Fad or Faz. hehe. my bad. 
credits to Khai. 
Credits to Khai.
Credits to Fad.
was taken i don't know why. haha. credits to Fad.
look at my face. credits to Faz.
this was taken after Faz said i resemble Winnie The Pooh.
hehe. credits to Fad.
Fad has a round face. i just noticed it.
Faz didn't capture herself. hehe.
credits to the wannabe photographer, Faz.
perfect! credits to Khai.
look at the boys behind. credits to Khai.
Fad moved. Credits to Khai.
Loves!
MamaLemon(:
Labels: think positively
♥A @ 20:53
Monday, January 12
scoops! @ 18:41
been rather bored to blog and no time and lazy and everything at 1 go. S5 life has been rather fine. i'm great, friends are great, life's cool and importantly i found a study+playing+joking+everything mate. yea, that sounds like it. although i've beeen trying hard to put up with stuffs i know i can put up with only my mood isn't good nowadays. been easily exhusted, tired and bored.Amalina hates this kind of life. but, somehow i'm learning to put up with it. There's times when people will be all around me and there's time when people don't care if exists. That's what i call life. With no challenges or problem, there's no experience in life. I'm trying to be positive about everything i'm going through right now. Although it's hard, i'm trying my best. (:
Homeworks, research and coursework is back. I need to prioritise my time very well. with another person clinging on my back, i need to work doubly hard. for our good, we need to motivate each other. i'm fine with anything as long as the other party is willing to work together with me. For that, motivation is a need for everyone. It's possible for everyone to achieve their goals, as long as they are willing to work towards it.
Today was rather mundane. Lesson had started and here comes the stress. My slogan for this year is going to be:
'No Pain, No Gain!'
it means, if there's no challenges/problems, we're not motivated to achieve our goal. Strive for your goal!
My studying period will not be too boring as i'm studying with this clown. He's fine only that he easily lose focus especially on Mathematics. took almost the same subject and yea, we're most likely going to be studying tgt and help each other in our studies. Let this friendship last long. (:
Horoscope:
Today you should start removing your emotions from conversations you have with the people who have some power over your life. They need to see you as someone who follows their intellect more than someone who goes with their gut. So while your devotion to your job or your current project is passionate, that shouldn't be the first thing you talk about. Stick to numbers and facts. Later on, once you two have developed a stronger personal relationship, you can get more personal.
Loves!
MamaLemon(:
♥A @ 18:41
Friday, January 9
Tags replied @ 21:47
sorry for not replying to the tags. didn't check my blog for a couple of days.here it goes:
z: heyy, i'm fine thank you. school is ok. i got 7points and yea, i'm rathter stress right now nah,i'm fine with kpo people. LOL! (:
Ateeq: heyy! welcome back! it's ok, i'm fine with it. I know u can't rmb my number. anws, i'm not angry with u or anything. *smiles*
Loves!
MamaLemon(:
♥A @ 21:47
Weekend! @ 18:29
Vulgars. yea, had been rather vulgar this few days. just spout any vulgar in mind. have been rather tired and angry with some stuffs here and there. my mind is bad for the week. Third day for period and that's affected my mood. Modswing for sometime. been rather quite in class except for some periods...Tummy ache's back. it SUCKS! seriously, it really is. this week was tiring enough. never home on time as i need to stay back for some stuffs. extremely exhausted that on Wednesday, i slept from 8pm to 6am. was too tired to change my clothes and take a shower. i know it's unhygienic but i can't help it. slept on the sofa with only my blanket and Pooh bolster.
Ytd went to Ngee Ann Poly. it was boring, fun and boring again. fun part was when i played few games at a Solar thingy place. it was run by solar panel itself and the games ther was fun! 3d game sort? seriously it's fun. hehe. enjoyed myself. after that tour around and cabbed to JP with Fad, Faz and Tikos. that's where we're splited!
Today, CCA exhibition! i thought it would be fun and smooth. but, some freaking students just don't want me to be happy. gave me shit and i gave them shit. no mood at a point of time and i guess it's due to my tiredness and stuffs. i got easily agitated. even the slightest thing. No mood for today only when i'm with Ying Jie, Amanda, Hasif and Jerrick and Co. i was rather happy. it's very rewarding to be with them. Amanda drew on my hand and will post the pictures prolly tmr? home at 5.30pm.
I am officially missing MySunshine, my hubby and my friends. especially Razanah! i'm going to hug her real tight if we're meeting. talked to her just now. miss her so much. Hope could meet all of them soon.
For Eric Wong Jun Jie:
Bro, congrats for getting to go to New Zealand. it's a reward for urself after 3 years of hard life in NCC. Have a great time there and do make friends! Have a safe trip/journey. Going to miss u. Lots of loves, hugs and kisses.
Loves!
MamaLemon(:
Labels: reward yourself fortnightly
♥A @ 18:29
Monday, January 5
tiring @ 20:36
Last night didn't sleep. fine, i slept for 1 hour? talked on the phone for so long with my friend. miss talking to people from my past. raking up the past sometimes make me end up with tears. i'd had enough of crying ytd. till now, he didn't call me. i bet he's busy. anws, i'm not expecting any phone calls la. (:Woke up late today and missed the empty 99 bus at 6.45am and also the 246 bus. in the end took 99 and it was fucking crowded. let me say this. it's actually not crowded but due to some inconsiderate souls, it is crowded. i really hate this. no matter what, i manage to smile today despite what took place ytd.
In class today did nth. seriously, i wasn't in my mind to study. due to lack of sleep. 2 free period lesson and i can say now, i'm starting to forget about all the problems i faced last year. even i'm trying to get close to the ones i'm having problem with. i just simply can't be bothered to bear any grudge and acting this way. This is ridiculous and it's rather childish.
Despite feling treated coldly and feel like we're apart, i will try my very best to be happy so that i will not lose anything yea. i bet once i'm attach, i'll let low, and will study and study and concentrate more on studies and give sometime to my guy and will not be bothered with any friends. except for those who were really there when i need smn.
New circle of friends and i'm feeling happy with them and hopefully this year it'll be a great year besides all the challenges i'll be facing sooner in the year. (:
Loves!
MamaLemon(:
Labels: life is just starting
♥A @ 20:36
Sunday, January 4
is it true? @ 17:28
My horoscope for today says this:
Someone has been playing games with you, and they haven't been the fun kind with dice and cards. All of this ongoing phone tag, confusing conversation and generally flaky behavior is not something you need to put up with. Today you need to put an end to it. Make it clear to this game player that you aren't interested in being a part of their plan. They'll either have to respect your wishes or move on to someone who isn't so self-assured. Either way you will be better off!
I don't know if it's true ir not. somehow, it is and somehow it isn't. i just don'tknow. let me just make it straight, if u want to be part of life, ure welcome. if u don't, ure not welcome.
Loves!
MamaLemon(:
♥A @ 17:28
Sunday @ 14:07
Weekend is soon going to end. when night falls, studnets are getting ready for school tmr and some might still be out. this weekend is spent at home, doing nth. i bet next weekend will be spent on numerous homeworks and more of it to come real soon.A stressful year is here and i need to endure. I manage to endure last year. Thanks to NPCC, i learnt how to endure. This year, i don't know if i want to continue withh CCA. i need the points, even though i had enough points. CCA is for me to distress. I'll continue with both my CCA.
I received a morning call by An at 6.37am. he told me he's down with fever and slept throughout the day ytd. i hope its true. anws, i just hope i could ne there for him. anws, don't get me wrong. i do take care of everybody. i know my post is always full of different guy names.
I said earlier, i love making friends with boys/guys/male. it's better that way and i know the different perception of the guys towards girls and i'm aware of some confidential stuffs. whatever it is, my Husband *coughcough* is always my top priority after my family. *like duh!*
let's start tmr with a big grin again. I hope i'll receive a morning call from An again.oh my, i just love being me now. happy and no moodswing currently. although i feel sad and bored at times, i still prefer being this way. i'm laid back and relax. yea.
I LOVE ME!
Loves!
MamaLemon(:
Labels: love or lust?
♥A @ 14:07
Saturday, January 3
past and present @ 23:04
2 years history? can i still rmb? i don't think so. i might rmb only certain things and i usually can't rmb what i told/said and what was said/told back then. a sudden show up and raking up about the past, about us, after u've hurt me. i use to look for u at times before. but after some times, i really can't be bothered to go around finding u. i just can't stop thinking about u back then. after i get myself over u for 1yr++ u came back in my life, giving me the spark that will light up my life.i was 14 back then when u used to make a fool of myself and i was really stupid then. i easily love a guy and easily get fooled. i admit i was a fool by loving u. i shouldn't have gave u the chance to be in my life. the chance was given to u as i though u'll love me truly but, came a day and u shatter my life. after that, i trust guys for 40% and after Ariffin's history, i trust guys for 10%.
now u came back into my life, and telling me things that make me wonder. u told me that u use to come and look for me when ure down, u still want to be with me but not now, u said u could click with me back then, u said u like my personality and i always go with ur personality. now, u told me how we were back then.
as i was on the phone with u, i'm actually thinking, why do u only came into my life now? i rmbred how i use to treat u right after we're apart. i still love u that time, and now, ure treating me like ur girl. in fact, ur wife. i respect that and i shall admit to u, i really love u and i really miss u. i mean my feelings now. but, i don't want to show it as yet as we're not going to be serious soon.
u asked me questions that i never thought my ex will ask me. questions like: if u have the chance, do u still want to be with me? and, do u still love me? my answer is yes. if i have the chance, i will and i still love u. even after what u did. it's still forgiven. u even ask me questions about my future, without hinting me why u asked, only until the end of our coversation.
now, u told me that, u want us to be together after u're done with NS and after i'm done with school. ure going to be in NS like 8 more months? and i should be done with O's like 8 or 9 more months? after that u want us to settle down, as in to be dating. now, we're like even talking about our future. i don't want to think to deep but ure the fire starter and i ended up talking and discussing with u about my future life.
i just hope u mean what u say and i don't want history to repeat itself. now, we're contacting only at night, during weekdays, and weekends and will go out together once in a while. i hope u love me for love not for lust. later today or tmr, i shall tell u what i expect from u.
now, u regard us as husband and wife and i don't have any comment to that. one thing for sure, my status isn't at stake. it won't be affected but i do have limit in doing anything. i will take care of u and i will give u the love that u need. for now, my love isn't for anyone except for family. why not, i add u to my list. i know that people might find this weird but to me, it's good. i'm not putting my feelings and hopes and everything at stake. we're considered, TTM, and i prefer it this way. coz, only by this way can we actually see our true feelings for each other.
let's just hope our friendship can last long. i hope, this thing won't affect our friendship in the future. we've known each other for 2 years and i want our memories to be cherished and to be rmbred till the day we die.
Loves!
MamaLemon(:
MamaLemon(:
Labels: love doesn't mean lust
♥A @ 23:04
schedule for next week @ 14:02
next week is going to be tiring. being the first week of school, usually students will tend to familiarise with their new environment but, for me and i guess most of the s4 students we're going to start our normal lessons next week. we need to prepare for our O levels from next week. fret not, this is part and parcel of life. endure with it for once and for all. already made my mind what to do and what not to do. let's move on.Monday: group A meeting until i don't know what time.
Tuesday: meeting until don't know what time.
Friday: CCA, NPCC.
wednesday and thursday will be spent doing my revision and maybe a little of rest. this year i hope i'm going to be healthy and happy even if i were to be lacking of sleep. (:
Alright, today i'll be utilising my time doing my project. i will finish it by today. i'll be taking up mum's room for the moment until i'm satisfied being alone. apart from project, i'll be re-arranging my stuffs for 2009. Time's up! i'm doing my project.
Just now, was on the phone with An. he's such a sweetie also his cousin. both are fun to be with. although we just get to know each other, i feel happy everytime i'm on the phone with him. for now, i'm enjoying my single life and i'm taking things slow. nothing to rush about.
Loves!
MamaLemon(:
Labels: Sunshine is missing
♥A @ 14:02
Friday, January 2
1st day @ 20:57
wake up call by An, new-friend-found, at 4.30am. talked with him on the phone till 5.15am where he continued to sleep and me, getting ready for school. being the 1st day of school, i wake up with a big smile on my face and was humming to any songs that came to my mind. was excited to go to school.left home at 6.45am. 99 is forever late and so, took 246 and alight at lakeside then took 187 to school. long journey but better than waiting for the forever late 99. reached school and i stand around with S1 and my height is the same as them. unfortunately, s5 must sit in front of the quadrangle. bad luck.
Today's lesson was just sitting around doing nth. so bored and i didn't on my phone and happened to that An texted me. after school only i replied. sitting at the front row in class, i hope i could study better and with the number of students who came back to s5, it's more condusive to study. hopefully.
i'm tired and i'm waiting for anyone to text or call me. anws, i'll be entertainig myself by watching The Little Nyonya till 10pm. after which i don't know what to do. oh ya, lot' of suffs waiting for me in my room. hope to be done with it asap. Tmr's NP training. going or not? no decision at the moment. grr...
Loves!
MamaLemon(:
Labels: there's hope if there's dream
♥A @ 20:57
Thursday, January 1
2009 @ 08:23
Happy New Yearto one and all. hope that the challenges faced in the year 2008 will be a lesson learnt to all. May your wish will come true this year and less challenges faced. Anws, what's ur new year's resolution?? i'm sure u've thought of one yea?
My New Year Resolution:
-change myself (positive change)
-solve problems instantly (hopefully)
-always have a positive mind
-ace in O level
so, in 2009, u'll see a change in my attitude as i know i'm being very rude and sarcastic to many people and these occurs misunderstanding. from misunderstanding, hatred will be built. this is no good. also, i will try my best not to drag a small matter to a later stage as i don't want it to be brood on anymore. i want it to start there and end there. if need be, i'll give in. i don't want any problems like last year to happen again. I want to start each and everyday with a positive mindset. this is indeed important. thus, i'll try my best to smile everyday. lastly, ace in O level. i'll start studying from now. trust me, i'll try to stop those entertainment that has been keeping me accompany. (:
tmr is the start of sth new! let's start it fresh and positively. i'm trying my best to make friends with the new S1 batch. school term starting, homeworks will come, CCA will come and life will be tiring and ot boring anymore. i will pick up new stuff and i won't forget about what i'd learnt last year.
Sunshine, i'm miss u very much. sadly, ytd i celebrated New Year with Family. i know u're busy with work and tired due to the long working hours. tmr u're going to start ur 3rd year in poly and it's ur attachment year, dear. try to quit ur current part time job like how we'd discussed and talk about it. u need time to rest dear. i just hope u'll be good to me, and always will. of course, i'll love u and ur welfare, i'll look after that. (:
I Love You Sunshine!
Loves!
MamaLemon(:
Labels: start of sth new
♥A @ 08:23