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Tuesday, December 30
say goodbye @ 23:30
Let's open a new chapter in life! 2009 will be, hopefully, a great year for me. i know i might be struggling but it's for my future. i just don't want any nonsensical problems to crop up in my life again. i've had enough of nonsense stuffs this year. i just want 2009 woll be a better and great year for me. i expect no relationship/friendship/family problems to happen. But, if it happens, i can't stop it. i will take it as a challenge for me to enter my new life of young adults. hehe.Let's RECAP 2008!
-relationship problem
indeed it was. only Allah knows how terrible i was especially when i was left by smn whom i truly love and care for. also, waiting for the guy whom i love and care for almost 6months and still counting. i bet, he wants it to be 1yr of knowing each other or maybe more. No one knows!
-family problem
this was one of the many that really affected my life a lot. now, i'm changing to be who i want to be. i don't one my parents to determine my future or who i am going to be. i want no one to order me in anything i do especially if it for my future. i'm the one who will determine my life.
-friendship problem
another one that affected partially of my life. i learnt a lot from all those different people whom i make friends with. be it S1, S2, S3 and so on...but, the most complicated problem is with a friend of mine whom i don't know if i can still count on or trust the person, after what had happened.
another one that affected partially of my life. i learnt a lot from all those different people whom i make friends with. be it S1, S2, S3 and so on...but, the most complicated problem is with a friend of mine whom i don't know if i can still count on or trust the person, after what had happened.
-determining my future
happens after N Level result. different people advised me a different thing. i was once on my wits end to determine my future. Now, i've made my choice. Hello Hua Yi Sec! yea, i'm going S5. 1 thing in mind, i'm going to be shorter than the new batch of s1 students. (:
overally, i've learnt new stuffs, i've tought people new stuffs, i made friends with many people and most of all, i'm learning how to be calm and be straight foward. i hope nothing of the above mentioned will happen in 2009.
Amalina, would like to apologise to everybody that knows me. I might have hurt u delibrately or not. I'm truly sorry. I hope all of you will accept my apology.
Say goodbye to 2008 and hello to 2009!
Loves!
MamaLemon(:
Labels: it has come to an end
♥A @ 23:30
Sunday, December 28
pissed off @ 22:51
I'm back to my blogging life. i've been busy this few days. busy with stuffs outside home. apart from that, i've been thinking about some stuffs. yea, have been doing some real thinking. too many things bugging in my head. just hope i could let it out through my ass. i'm freaking pissed off with some people who can't let their nose off my stuffs. stop being so nosey. i do what i want. stay out of my problems. let me settle it myself. hopefully.heard lots of negative stuffs about me. i'm not keen to know more. i can't do anything about this. i don't want to put it to a stop right now. wait till i can't stand this piece of shit, i'm gonna kill those who did all this. i really hate it. i might keep quiet but there is a limit in everything i do.
that's one, next, nobody is around me now. i'm very lonely and even Abang didn't text/reply my msgs. sadly, he said that he can't do anything about 1 matter. that shatters my heart. realy shatter. 2nd time a guy break my heart, like real breaking. won't bother Abang for time being as i know he might not be in a good mood. moodswing!!!!
thirdly, i hate smn who controls my life and never respect my privacy. reads my msgs and i can't do this, can't do that. must listen to u. reason being, u want to know how true my feeling is. really sad to know that i came across this kind of people. hate this people and i just can help it but let this type of people go out from my life...till here..can't stand these stupid matters.
Sunshine, he has been really busy and didn't text/call me. i know it's kind of sad but what to do. we both need time to be alone at times too. but still, we still contact each other too. I love u Sunshine!
Loves!
MamaLemon(:
Labels: never ending story
♥A @ 22:51
Thursday, December 25
Update @ 10:56
currently i'm at Mc Donald. waiting for my lunch. lol. having BRUNCH at Mc Donald. grr...i was diarrohea-ing this morning and some people just can't see me having a good sleep. they never fail to text me when i'm sleeping. this morning i don't know why but i can notice that i have msgs. it's rather irritating as i slept at 4am ytd as i talked on the phone and i don't know why but i talked about Ariffin, my ex. i teared for a reason.currently i'm listening to stories...grr..frustating, irritating and many more. i'm not happy to hear about this but i'm not taking it into my heart. what i could do now is just to hear all the facts from one party and let's see which really match. grr..
Loves!
MamaLemon(:
♥A @ 10:56
Tuesday, December 23
Bored! @ 20:13
was supposed to have a tv marathon today. but, The Little Nyonya starts at 9pm today. grr... Was watching the tv from 4.30pm to 8pm. will start again at 9pm to 11.30pm. might be sleeping early today. wasn't well but still, i have the energy to watch tv. LOL
in the middle of last night, i received 2 text msgs and 1 missed call. before today i ever received calls at the same time and i could wake up. but, this time round i was seriously weak. only realised at 6 this morning. how tired i am.
Abang's friend took my number and he always gove me a wrong impression with the way he text me. anws, just hope i could have many friends. i don't care who la. anyone will do. i'm seriously bored and let's see what i could do now.
Sunshine, i'm always waiting for your call and msgs. Set aside time for yourself. I'm really worried about u. I shall stop bothering u for a while. I know u love me and ur silence means that u miss me.
I LOVE YOU!
Loves!
MamaLemon(:
Labels: absence makes the heart grows fonder
♥A @ 20:13
Monday, December 22
craps @ 15:30
Singapore lose to Vietnam.Oh my, how on Earth i feel really sad about Singapore losing in this game. It was only yesterday i started watching this AFF Suzuki cup game thingy. I was the one shouting, screaming and scolding with all those vulgars. *oops*
It was true and no one commented on how vulgar i am. not only me, my dad was vulgar-ing too. lucky not like the other time where he throw his drumstick at the tv, to vent his anger. the next minute, the screen went blank. i wasn't really affected as i don't really watch tv. ytd the tv inside mum's room was brought out and replaced with the can't-be-used tv.
ytd, Abang was so funny and crazy. he never fails to keep me irritated. only ytd, he was out of his comfort zone and yea, we talked and talked. told me that he can't be bothered to contact his friend and i said the same too. apart from being angry with a freak who keeps on calling me even after saying i was on the phone with a friend. he never fail to make me angry. luckily, Abang was there for me. i'm happy that Abang and kakak is always there for me.
A song for MySunshine.
Matahariku
Tertutup sudah pintu, pintu hatiku
Yang pernah dibuka waktu, hanya untukmu
Kini kau pergi, dari hidupku
Ku harus relakanmu walau aku tak mahu
Berjuta warna pelangi didalam hati
Sejenak luluh bergeming menjauh pergi
Tak ada lagi cahaya suci
Semua nada beranjak aku terdiam sepi
Dengarlah matahariku, suara tangisanku
Kubersedih kerna panah cinta menusuk jantungku
Ucapkan matahariku, puisi tentang hidupku
Tentangku yang tak mampu menaklukkan waktu
Berjuta warna pelangi didalam hati
Sejenak luluh bergeming menjauh pergi
Tak ada lagi cahaya suci
Semua nada beranjak aku terdiam sepi
Dengarlah matahariku, suara tangisanku
Kubersedih kerna panah cinta menusuk jantungku
Dengarlah matahariku, suara tangisanku
Kubersedih kerna panah cinta menusuk jantungku
Ucapkan matahariku puisi tentang hidupku
Tentangku yang tak mampu menaklukkan waktu
this is an Indonesian song sang by Agnes Monica.
i realised that this title is Matahariku, MySunshine, while talking on the phone with Abang. i kept singing and singing till he said to me, if i'm done, let him know. he's annoyed. haha. Sorry abang!
This song, i don't really understand its meaning but it sounds like a sad song. some words i don't understand what i mean. Sorry i can't translate.
Loves!
MamaLemon(:
♥A @ 15:30
Saturday, December 20
Trust @ 21:49
Trust is something important in life. we need to trust everyone but those who had lost our trust is actually those who, we used to trust the most. In life nobosy an run from the word TRUST. We really need to find the right person whom we can trust him/her. This person is the one who we are close with and we can actually tell them our sorrows, happiness and top secrets.Throughout my 16 years of life, i started to know the meaning of TRUST at the age of 15(2008). Let me just share a life story and those who happened to read this post, please don't ask me who, when and why it happened. I'm going to hide the person's identity. I'm going to refer the person as M. (:
i started trusting M after i've known her for a long time. i started a trusting test by telling her sth and i told another friend of mine the same thing. reasons: i want to see if M will tell this friend of mine and we'll actually update each other about what M said. this test was successful. i'm happy as now, i found smn that i can tell my secrets to and trust as well.
Unfortunately, one day i told M about someone(c) andd i don't know why, but M told C about what i said. I was so shocked when that C confronted me and i said it was merel a comment from me. No grudges beared. comments about smn is what i often shared with M. but, somtimes M dissapoints me by telling the person what i commented. this happens a few times and my percentade for trusting M is fading away. Till now, i don't know if we were to meet again next year. i just hope the best for u.
that's a little bit of my life story i could share. Not too much about it. but yea, this incident open up my eyes to find the one and only person that i can trust well.
Loves!
MamaLemon(:
♥A @ 21:49
officially missing you @ 14:42
Sunshine
are the spark that light my life.
are the spark that light my life.
u are a treasure in my life.
u are the one who drew a smile on my lips.
without u, my life will be in pitch dark.
without u, i found no treasure in life.
without u, i will not be smiling.
Yes, i'm officially missing MySunshine. He's busy with work. I'm jsut worried about his safety and health. I jsut hope he's going to have some off days. At least he could rest well before school term starts. That's when his attachment starts and he's going to be very busy and i will also be busy too. O level next year. working triply hard. Deary, we should set a date to go for a bowl. (:
i'm missing these littke kiddos at Bedok.
they are the ones that drew a smile on my lips during my stayover at Bedok. i really don't get that kind of attention here. my siblings has grown up only that little 3yrs old kiddo
who's starting to go to school next year. i received a phone call saying that they came to gran's house to help out for an ocassion. bergotong-royong bersama. i don't know if i'm going over as i'm feeling tired and depends on mom. if she goes, i'll go. (:Loves!
MamaLemon(:
Labels: life with u
♥A @ 14:42
Friday, December 19
Slacking and relaxing @ 21:25
Oh Great! how i'd wish this moment had come way much earlier. nothing to worry much. Results are good, no homework, no need to study and no need to be stress. The year is nearing to the end and here i am thinking about the necessary preparations that need to be done for next year. As i'd told u, i'm going to change myself, if i were to go to secondary 5. yes, i've made my decision and i'm continuing with my secondary life as per normal but, with an extra, triply hardwork.Stop talking about schools and stuffs. Today i've been sleeping, gaming and eating the whole day. Next year i'm seriously going to start gym-ing every weekend, unless otherwise stated. i really need to be healthy if i want to go on to poly and who knows to uni? But, i'd yet thinking about my life after poly. i've stop thinking about my life until my poly life. i'll start thinking again if i were to go into poly. now too early.
Sunshine, finaly u are my deary. I will love u with all of my heart and never ever make u angry or sad. i'd rather go an extra mile just to make u happy. but there's a limitation is everything WE do. This relationship is all about US not you and me. I'll be an understanding sweetheart.
I Love You.
Loves!
MamaLemon(:
Labels: u're officially mine.
♥A @ 21:25
Thursday, December 18
What do my friends think about me? @ 21:31
Alright. This was done after our 1st N level paper. This is to help teacher write testimonial for us. As our teacher wasn't fixed and she need to know a little more about us so she knows what to write about. (:
Fazillah:
Amalina is a helpful girl. She always help teachers when they needed help.
Aisyah:
She is cute, chubby girl who resembles Winnie The Pooh.
Evann:
Lovely girl who never fails to cheer me up, also a friend i can turn to in times of trouble.
Melissa:
Positive attitude towards things that she do. Never give up easily.
Atiqah D:
Always smile and never fail to lend others a helping hand.
Atiqah A:
Friendly and approachable friend. But, if she's mad don't go near her or she'll explode. Overall, nice girl.
Razana:
Amalina.Friendsly.Funny.Active in CCA.Always busy.Crappy.Good in cooking.F&N marh...
Hariz:
Amalina? hmm..Teacher's pet, kind, friendly and somtimes motivates me.(:
Alan:
She is friendly, funny and a responsible leader. I treat her as my younger sister. She is also very cheerful and always bring a smile everyday.
Nicholas:
Amalina is a cheerful girl who is attentive in class and efficient when it comes to work. Never seen without a smile on her face.
Siew Ming:
Kind, helpful and caring.
Farhan:
Amalina is a very hardworking student and a responsible leader. Never fail to be a busybody in class and also likes to laugh alot.
Bernard:
Amalin is someone who is willing to go the extra mile for others.
Bharath:
A girl who loves to help others.
Han Tong:
A girl who is helpful and funny. Very cheerful too. A great friend.
Zoey:
A girl who is vey hardworking and well-dressed.
Amira:
Amalina is very friendly, caring and understanding girl. She help me when i am in need or cheer me up when i am down.
Fadhillah:
Amalina is a very encouraging friend who will help me when i'm in need. She is aso a caring friend who will care for me.
Wei Ting:
A polite girl who is hardworing.
Jia Xin:
Hardworking. Quiet.
Woo Ti Pong:
MamaLemon is a very funny girl and she often lend a helping hand to others.
Wei Sian:
Amalina is a polite and responsible girl. Often stand out to assist teachers. She cheer people up when they are feeling low.
Farid:
Amalina is a cheerful girl who always smile and laugh(when i make jokes). She is very positive towards her studies.
Jia Yu:
She is a very rsponsible girl. She will help me with my school work.
Felicia:
Amalina is a helpful girl who loves to help people in any difficulties.
if u want to comment about me, do so at my tagboard.(: to my classmate in 2008 and those who write this ''testimonial'' for me, i want to thank you for realising the real Amalina. Congrats! U have made an achievement. I'm happy that although we're not very close, u can still understand me.(:
Loves!
MamaLemon(:
♥A @ 21:31
Results @ 20:21
Ok. result's out. this is what happened.reach school, i went to Office to pay library fines. but, they don't know how much. arrgghh!! i'm becoming more nervous and reached the hall. sat on the chairs and was told to sit on the floor. as per normal. Briefed us what to do and later on who scored the highest and stuffs. waited and waited for my name to be called. while waiting, my phone kept ringing and vibrating. all are asking for my results, when i've yet to receive it. haha. funny yea.
upon receiving a blue list, i smiled as that shows that i'm promoted. all those confirm going ITE are all from my class. the other class have 100% passes. nvm, after i was told i got 7 points and a 4 for my English, i smiled and i didn't hug anyone. i cried upon calling my aunt. then my mum then my aunt. then go and have lunch and went home.
On my way home, i'm still thinking about where to go. Higher NITEC or Secondary 5. at home, after looking over the courses i'm eligible to go, i wasn't convinced to go ITE. those courses aren't what i'm interested in. finally, i've decided to go to Secondary 5. another year to pull through and yea, i'm going to be a nerd. haha. lol. but of course, i'm going to spend time on my own, relaxing.
Sunshine,
i know u're tired and u're still findinf time to spend with me. It's hard for u and me. But, we're going to go through any challenges together. i'm not going to leave u with all the decisions and anything. It's about us not u and me. Everything, we'll share. Trust. Love. Understand. I love you!
Loves!
MamaLemon(:
Labels: Trust. Love. Understand.
♥A @ 20:21
The day has come @ 11:58
Today is:N Level RESULTS!!
Twilight!
What are my plans for today?
plans? i don't know. perhaps go home and sleep after collecting my results. but, i'm going to inform those who need to be informed first. after which i will go home. be it good or bad results. Not palanning to watch Twilight as yet. we'll wait and see.
I'm actually not nervous or scared. but, after i had this dream i woke up feeling very cold and with butterflies on in my stomach. i dreamt that i went to school, wearing my Secondary 3 Adventure Camp shirt and i was scolded by the teacher for not wearing proper attire. then, i collected my results and i got 6 points. haha. lol. i don't think i can score that good. but if i do, praises to Allah. Partly, most of my friends had passed on to me their nervousness and scaredness. LOL! whatever it is, i'm going to take everything in a positive manner. i'll try my best to talk to my friend if they're sadden by their results. i'm afraid, i might be the one who needs someone to talk to me. hope it's not going to happen. *finger crossed*
Pictures taken hours before sleeping....too nervous??
Anws, i can't sleep ytd and talked on the phone with Evann as she can't sleep due to the results today for me, i can't sleep as i'm always sleeping late at night. It's a habit. it'd soon go away. School day is coming soon. after talking to Evann, i baked some pancakes and talked on the phone with beloved Abang. we are extremely crazy ytd. haha. it was a good chat apart from the other days. (: went to sleep after that and wake up cal for Abang from me at 7am. Zack gave me a wake up call. i can't sleep anymore now. GRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thousands thanks to everyone that suppors me and had wish me goodluck!
Loves!
MamaLemon(:
Labels: What's done can't be undone
♥A @ 11:58
Wednesday, December 17
Finally @ 22:31
I'm home safely. No word from anyone. the moment i step into my house, the little kiddo said this:kak ina, ayie cari tau. psp ade?
it means:
sister, i've been looking for u. where's ur psp?
LOL! 3 yr old kiddo came running to me and said that. nobody misses me. haha. who will. whatever it is, i'm not going to brood over this matter, fyi, i'm home in Boon Lay. yea, after 5 nights stay at my aunt's place, i've decided to go home as tmr is my results. i need to be in school by 1.30pm as the results will be revealed at 2pm? but of course not straight away. last year went to see the seniors they were briefed through all the relevant informations and only then results will be revealed.
Second time taking such a results. hopefully i could continue my secondary life to take O level next year. that's my dream for now. even if i were to go ITE, i don't mind. but it's going to be a brain-cracking thing for me. i don't know which ITE, course and stuffs. so yea, i'm really need to seat and think. without my parents interfering with this. not even my dad can choose for me. he can suggest but, i'm not going to follow. i'm going to choose my own course and ITE.
I can't change a single thing now. i just need to go in the hall with an open and calm heart. i can't be crying and anything if i didn't do well as i did my best. i'm sure there's gonna be tears all over. even i think i'm gonna cry. No matter what result i'm getting, it's just about me and my future and if u want to criticise, go on. i can't shut ur mouth for u. i'm only going to wait and see how long that will last. it's my future, not urs. so better shut up and move on with ur life. stop being nosey with my life.
Loves!
MamaLemon(:
Labels: finally u're mine
♥A @ 22:31
Wednesday @ 15:02
1 more day to results.oh yea baby, i'm sososo
NERVOUS.
This feeling is going to be over powering me tmr. For sure, i will feel like going toilet right before taking my results. This always happens to me when i feel nervous. Be it, taking results, meeting someone new, or anything. Only Allah knows, how nervous i am. what i can do is to relax and stay calm.
Apart from results, i'm going to end my Single life. haha. ok. maybe not. i don't know. though it's been 5 months knowing each other. we contacted for 5 moths and this is what i mean getting to know each other. never stop contactin each other during the time given. (: We did that and we've been having feelings for each other for 4-5months? i don't know. heh.
MySunshine, u never fail to draw a smile on my lips everyday and my happiness now, lies in ur hand. i'm going to trust, care and love u. the most important thing is, understand u better as u're working like almost everyday eventhough u're schooling...Money very the important now.
Baby, let's set a date and time to go for a bowl. hehe, i just hope i'll beat u aye? haha. i just hope that u're going to be fine. i'm sososo worried about u la. although u get me all worried, angry and sad i still love u. I guess that's what every girl will feel if the one she love dearly didn't contact her. But, fortunately for me, u don't turn back on ur words. i feel happy about that baby!
Loves!
MamaLemon(:
Labels: i'm happy that finally u're mine
♥A @ 15:02
Tuesday, December 16
updates @ 14:13
Amalina says Hello!!I've not been updating my blog. i can't access to the internet don't know why but i can go into MSN. weird but that's what happening. i've been rather weak this few days. Problems over powering me is fading. what i really want is to talk it out. i did. i feel better only things is, i've been having stomach upset. went to the toilets more than thrice a day. haha. life's been great here, in Bedok.
My results will be revealed on Thursday. Nervous and everything. Let's drop the topic. I'll be going home tmr. Abang is so sweet. Don't know how we regard each other like brother and sister. (:
Anws, i'm happy as MySunshine contaced me today due to a forwarded msg that i sent to 10 people. he replied me. I guess, my long awaiting moment will be up soon. hehe. hopefully this will be a long last relationship. nothing much we're expecting from each other. What's expected is for us to trust, respect and understand each other. For that, i just hope that it's gonna b a long last relationship.
Loves!
MamaLemon(:
♥A @ 14:13
Sunday, December 14
hehehehehehe @ 20:38
this is my 1year blogging.woopee!!haha..kk.i am bored.LOL..so...HAPPY 1 YEAR my BLOGGY! (:
okie cool..i am done for now.will be back soon to update more.
Loves!
MamaLemon (:
♥A @ 20:38
Friday, December 12
listening ear @ 22:06
i just need a listening ear. mcm phm! but seriously, behind those smiles i drew everyday, i have lots of troubles. talking about my life is the same as u watching someone who is trying to conquer troubled waters. LOL! my life is very horrible. i might be by your side, smiling, laughing and joking around but when i'm alone, i tend to cry. that's what i do when i'm alone and only when i'm thinking about what had happened in my life.Trust me, no one will ever want a life like mine. but, bab pepatah melayu, susah dahulu senang kemudian. it means, suffer first and in the end we enjoy. LOL. sth like that uh. i sacrificed a lot for my siblings, and what do i get in returnfrom them?
NOTHING.
yea. ZERO. big fat ZERO, like an egg. i don't know if i deserve the way they treat me now. i'm nobody to them. come to me when in trouble and go when they're fine.
being away from home, relaxed my mind and my aunt's really great! we talked alot and i love the kind of care she gave to me. sadly, at home i don't usually get this treatment. LOL! for once Amalina is having a stupid timein her life. seriously. everything i do, isn't coming from my heart. i'm not the usual me can?
Loves!
MamaLemon(:
♥A @ 22:06
Extraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa @ 21:25
E for Extravagant!I'm not blogging much as i'm at aunt's house. will update asap when i get home and will post the pictures. Two days away from home is fun and relaxing and learnt lots of new stuffs. Yea, i love it. I'm going to chill out while waiting for the judgement day to come. The day which will determine if i'd get my free Twilight ticket and whether will i become a nerd or a wild person. This results will really make a great change in my life. i hope that everything goes well and hopefully, my ambition to be an F&N teacher will be fulfilled. *wink*
I'm missing my bed, Pooh bear, Pooh bolster, SIA pillow and my laptop. Luckily at my aunt's place i can charge my PSP and my SE handphone, which previously was dead as i used that to keep my self accompanied besides having Soffey The Awesome by my side. LOL! She's really an awesome girl! Awesomeness behind those innocent face yea? But seriously, she is. if only i were as fierce as her towards my siblings i'd be feeling great. *smile*
Unfortunately, my camera can't be charged. but luckily there's a substitution to take photos using my phone camera although it's not really good. at least there's sth to substitute on. LOL! frankly, i don't miss my parents. HAHA! that's too frank la. i feel happy staying over at my aunt's place as i feel calm and my freedom is there. at home, i'll be either in front of the tv, my laptop or computer or in my room doing anything i could do. here, i feel better. idk why but, i just like it when i'm away from home. no one to nag at me, ifeel happy and i feel that i'm really me, Siti Nur Amalina. yea, that's me.
Loves!
MamaLemon(:
♥A @ 21:25
Thursday, December 11
Wednesday @ 00:35
H for Happiness.That's right, i'm in a happy mood as soon as i received two free tickets to the movie Igor(Eeegor). i don't know wth is the movie all about. i was only told that it was a kids show. LOL! 16 year old tgk cite bdk2? LOL! didn't proceed as me and Soffey The Awesome planned to just seat by the bay to chat. yea, chat like really chat. sat for few hours talking and chatting and updating each other. that's we we would do when we meet. Thanks to the movies that we had a great chatting time. (: Pictures taken today will be posted soon.
To Haikal the CrazyFriend of mine: I'm seriously sorry if my joke hurts u. Maube ure not in the mood or having some problems. The least u could do is to forgive me. That was just a joke not me, making wild accusation about u. I'm seriously sorry. Everything is up to u now. (:
Loves!
MamaLemon(:
Labels: Forgive and Forget
♥A @ 00:35
Tuesday, December 9
untitled @ 20:53
L for lightning.Lightning in my heart is about to strike any time. Angry? Unsatisfied? that's about it. this feeling has been overpowering my calm and enthusiastic heart. i really hate those feelings which conquer my soft side. Now, i'm being rebellious and i'm starting to provoke mum, dad and grans. i hate my attitude nowadays. things have always been good till ytd. why must things change? had a tiff with dad last night over sth. he's really biased between me and others. i hate that very much. i used to have so many curfews when they don't. i always get scolded and beaten up because of them. is this how the eldest in the family should be treated? must i really sacrifice for every single thing?
at the age of 16 years old onlt can i feel great about being the eldest. my parents don't really scold me. whatever it is, my grades are better than others. i have set the good example and they are worst than me. not my fault. mom and dad are the reason why they are like that. they rarely laid a hand on them. i guess that's part of a reason why i'm having these feelings. Now, i don't really bother what they say especially when the say sth that i never did/said or anyhting.
i'll stop complaining about this matter anymore. NEVER EVER AGAIN. i want a happy life. i'll just take it as a challenge for me. Anws, toda i woke up at 4pm and i had a goodnight sleep. nobody disturb me and i'm resting enough. i just hope the future will be brighter. (:
I ain't watching soccer today but i hope S'pore will win. S'pore is leading and i guess S'pore is going to win!! I love Singapore forever. where ever i am, i always love singapore. That's fo sure!
S for Smile!
He's the only one who can make me smile and laugh everyday. I really love him very much. Never will i dream to be apart from him. He's my heart and soul and he's the one i love most!
He is:
Harith, my baby brother. No one will ever get that kind of attention, love and care other than him and my boyfriend, if i were to have 1. (:
Loves!
MamaLemon(:
Labels: he made me smile
♥A @ 20:53
Monday, December 8
Hari Raya Haji @ 22:59
today was a little sleepy as i slept at 6am this morning. was on the phone with Irwan. he made my day ytd. i was really down and he tried so hard to make me smile and laugh. he was overally a nice person, sweet, loving, kind, cute, happy go lucky and easy going. Despite his past, he is actually nice. what he needs is moral support and encouragement from everyone. he was once someone bad. Notorious is the word. what ever happens, i promise myself to give him support and yea, hopefully he'll be a better guy.
Let's get back on track. slept that late and woke up at 11.30am and get ready to go gran's house. It was super cold in the morning and even till now. it was extremely cold in gran's house and watched a Drama at RTM 1 titled Cerita Adam. It was a sadsadsad but happy ending story. i love it although i can't really understand it. LOL! after that had forty winks and sth happened that i can't nap anymore. started to think about it and yea, moody was my mood at a point of time. Watched chinese drama, Let It Shine on Ch8. after which went to aunt's place to send some dishes from gran.
At night aunties, uncles and cousins came to my house. looked at old photos and had a great laugh and raking up the past. finally a good gathering. maternal side. paternal side soon. LOL! everything just ended and i'm really tired. Irwan's went back to camp and i hope Sunshine will contact me asap. tonight will be a good night sleep and no disturbance.
Loves!
MamaLemon(:
Labels: Everyone will change eventually.
♥A @ 22:59
Sunday, December 7
blablabla @ 16:31
Wake up call by Noh. Thanks eh! *sarcasm*he wanted to ask me if was awake as he wants to send my orders. it's for charity. bought it in the name of charity.(: slacked till 3.30pm when mom chop my fringe for me. i'm feeling unsarisfied i alter it myself and it became shorter and shorter. but still eyebrow level. it's a curved to my left and that's why it looks rather short.
Are u happy?
I guess i am happy. i wanted to cut my fringe long ago and i gues the next best thing to do is to cut my hair a little shorter as i look better with a shorter hair in this new fringe. LOL! but i'm still considering as i've wasted my money recently at the salon to trim and thin my hair. currenty thinking and thinking and thinking if i want to cut my hair or not. LOL!
Hari Raya Haji:
i'm unsure if tmr's gonna be great or not. LOL! i'm just not in a festive mood. the least that could happen is gather at gran's house till maeb late night? as tmr's still holiday. what shall i wear tmr? i also don't know. haha. should i bring along my camera? lagi aku tk tau. feel lazy to go out. i planned to go to the Mosque to see the ibadah korban being done and at least shoot some shots and i'll have sth to blog about. LOL! who to go with? i don't know. everyone's busy with the occassion. haha. i guess i'll do some research about Hari Raya Haji and blog tmr. haha. LOL. i'm just merely giving stupid suggestion for an interesting post?
New Year's Resolution:
December will come to an end like real soon. my December is spent either alone or with family. LOL! Quality time i guess. haha...my resolution for the New Year will be a long list. but i hope everything will be done. i'l do my checklist and stuffs. LOL! i'll only make a list after N Level Result.
N Level Result:
I am super nervous but i'm not thinking much. i've done my best and i'm praying for the best. that's the most i could do now. LOL! Regret? No use!! cry? i guess so. for the good and bad results!! (:
Loves!
MamaLemon(:
♥A @ 16:31
Saturday, December 6
Pictures @ 22:46
S for sarcastic!yea, sarcastic. my life is full of sarcasm. i don't know why but i just prefer it that way. Sarcasm is only for joking/laughing matter nothing personal. bear that in mind ok! Today was super bored can? woke up at 3pm. Mom fetched dad from the hospital as he was discharged today. Good and bad. LOL! i might be missing the noise at home. LOL! but at the same time i hate to be ordered! but never mind, i'll close an eye since he's unwell like some women who just gave birth! it was given by my aunt and mom. funny yea?
Let's get back on track. woke up that late as i was on the phone with a new friend of mine, Crazy Haikal, till 4.30am. talk about lots of things nd i was entertained by him. Thanks new friend! after waking up i prepared the house as my aunt coming to visit dad. so yea, had dinner and came all the visitors. LOL! nothing much to blog about today. That's all the pictures taken yesterday! Enjoy!
Loves!
MamaLemon(:
♥A @ 22:46
Friday @ 00:40
Friday was spent in the hospital. Great! mom wake us up at 10am. i don't give a damn to the time as i was so tired and sleepy. yea, i'm like one sleepyhead. Gosh! i miss him calling me this. ): Anws, i finally woke up at 11.30am and get ready to head to the hospital. so lucky today that my left side contact lens tear. WTF!! no wonder i can't open my eye after putting it in...Arrrggghhh!!! i can't see that it's torn as it's only a small area and so lucky that it turn out to be at the center of the lens. must save my money to buy that 1 side as i really need it urgently. can't possibly wear the coloured ones as it seems to be rather cloudy and i feel akward. LOL!!i'm like a pathetic hungry ghost. never eat before heading out and i feel super hungry la. went to cheers and bought Honey Chicken Pau(2), Polar Hotdog Roll(1) and Honeydew fruit(1). see how hungry i am. Oh ya, i'm made an achievement today. haha. i finally drank Pocari Sweat. the drink that i'm so afraid of to drink. like finally la. haha. ok. i know that's weird. i'm such a scarry cat huh? it tasted like 100 plus. haha. ok. after that i don't feel hungry. at 6pm i watched this chinese show. there's a chinese family who was looking at me. i think they're surprised to see me watching chinese show. (: but i really like some of it la. malay show show isn't really interesting.
went home at 8pm and ate at gran's house. full and sleepy. raining whether nice to sleep in yea? now i'm blogging and listening to songs. (: i'm happy that i finally changed my blogskin. i edited the template a little to suit my taste. (:
p.s: pictures taken today will be posted soon...
Loves!
MamaLemon(:
♥A @ 00:40
Thursday, December 4
PicsTalk! @ 20:17
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I'm finally 16 and i'm currently enjoying my Sweet 16 life. It's full of challenges and my family tends to understand me more now. i seldom get scolded now as i've been isolationg myself so that i'm out of any danger or scolding ir mistakes. (:
Grandmom's friend lots of chicken to cook Ayam Masak Merah and yea, i love chicken! Of course! The fats will be multiplied!
1st batch of friends to come for the Birthday celebration. they sang for me and oh my. i was blushing. haha. (:
My future sister-in-law. haha. she claimed to be one and the one she's crrying is her husband. LOL!
The third batch of friends to come. Primary school mates. Sorry for not attending to u people. Thanks for coming!
The two tallie...Shahril and Solihin. hope the spelling's right. they're super tall and very photogenic. LOL!
2nd and last batch of friends. taken with their god-mom, my aunt. a picture before a surprise SPLASH from aunt.
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See, a new shirt. thanks to Aunt and Noh who splash me with Water Bomb that they've prepared earlier on. i'm all wet and feeling cold and i must change to a new shirt. and oh shit! there's a wet patch on my shirt too.. Arrrgghhhh!!!
The last group to go home. and, presenting to u: Cadbury Chocolates. Thank you boys!
Loves!
MamaLemon(:
♥A @ 20:17
choices @ 19:07
in life the most difficult thing to do is to make the right decision. either u gain or u lose. i just hope there's sth that allows me to gain with losing and not vice versa. i don't want to lose anything. talked to love on the phone about this.me: heyy, if u were me will u rather lose or gain?
love: why are u asking me eh?
me: nah, smn place me in this situation where i need to choose between two. either i gain him or lose him. but, i don't want to neither gain nor lose him. i want to be just friends.
love: well, since he wants u to choose than make a wise choice. i know u don't want to lose a friend but he wants that. i mean, he either wants u to gain him or lose him. so yea, follow ur heart.
me: hmm....ok...i guess i better lose him huh?
love: it's up to u. since he give u the options..
me: (mumbling to myself) i'm sorry i can't commit. i don't a need for u to put me in such a situation. i'm really sorry.
love: huh? what u said?
me: nth. was talking to myself.
love: seronok pe bbual sendiri?
me: *laughing*
i guess i've made my decision. yea, i rather lose than gain in this kind of situation. i just hope life wuold be much better in the days to come. it's really sad to be having a life like this. btu, in life we can't run from anything. we can do anything to prevent it from happening but if it can't be prevented that too bad is the answer.
another conversaton with love.
me: heyy, i feel like dying seh.
love: huh? but why?
me: idk. just feel lie dying.
love: u want me to slap u or beat u up?
me: anything uh.
love: want a slap from me huh?
me: haha. slap me if u dare.
love: nah, i won't slap u but i'll bite u. hehe
me: bite me then.
love: *laughing*
sometimes give an option won't settle anything but it add up another burden to that someone. if he/she can't be bothered, they would just heck care both the options and continue with what they do. sometimes they act without thinking of the consequences as they just simply can't be bothered with anything in life.
somehow i'm happy that i met lov in my life. he somehow give me advice when i need one. he oftens make me laugh and smile. i'm happy that i found u. thankt you love!
stupid shit! i missed my tv programme again! miss it twice. how can i be so careless about time. this can't happen again. oh my. i'm too engrossed in blogging till i forgotten about everything else. time for me to relax. (:
Loves!
MamaLemon(:
♥A @ 19:07
Thursday @ 18:37
woke up feeling tired and showered and eat and watched tv. dad's got admitted in the hospital and feel sad too. he need to go for a surgery about sth. i'm feeling tired, helpless and worried for dear scandal too. he's not feeling well and i guess he's running a temperature too. just hope he's fine. i can't help it but keep on nagging on him to eat as he's been skipping meals almost everyday i guess. reason being, he's appetite isn't there. hope i could be there for u.Loves!
MamaLemon(:
♥A @ 18:37
boredness cum sadness @ 17:23
Wednesday is a tiring day. didn't sleep the whole night(Tuesday) and went out as early as 6am to meet a friend. met till 7.30am and i slept like a piggy pig PIG! woke up at 12.30nn to get ready to go to the airport to send off my uncle who's going to do his pilgrimage. (menunaikan ibadah Haji) was so lazy to wake up but in the end i woke up and went for another shower. haha. just to keep myself alive and refreshing! he called me while i'm otw to airport. don't feel like talking to him. reasons being: my love for him has faded and i'm trying my best to forget about him. (sorry yea.) Reached airport and OMG it's like the situation back in Thailand. LOL! so crowded with poeple with the same reason: going for pilgrimage. there's lots of cute guys and yea, sempat aku mencuci mata...LOL! there's a drama in the airport. idk what happened but there's 2 guys fighting (should be brothers/siblings). their mom cried and i felt the pain in her heart. she's going away for a month and now, in her eyes her kids are fighting. hard to leave them. in the end everything's pacified and i bid farewell to my uncle. somehow the feeling of crying is there but i tried to hold it back.
rembered how i cried in the airport before going India a month back. haha. it was very funny and so UNGLAMM of me to do that la. haha. i'm crying like a little kid and those friend of mine tried to calm me down and instead i cried more. haha. gosh! thinking back about the past things could be great. (:
reached home at 9.30pm. planned to shower but i slept till 11.30pm. woke up. showered. eat my cracker. LOL! hang on the phone with my dear scandal. O.o i have a scandal huh? haha...yea i do. not a big deal. the world is full of scandalism nowadays. what's the problem? i'm single and no one can say no to me. haha. okok. very well. i know that i didn't eat for the whole day and so i suck a candy cane. or rather eat a candy cane while on the phone with dear scandal. it boost my energy till 4.30am when i'm finally back to sleep.
p.s: stop bothering me about my personal life. i really hate it when i was asked such questions. i'm a changed person now. happy??
Loves!
MamaLemon(:
♥A @ 17:23
Tuesday, December 2
tiring can? @ 14:52
ytd was supposed to accompany a friend of mine not to sleep the whole day but in the end he was the one sleeping. i can't sleep and decide to talk with another friend. 1/2 way through the chat i'm feeling sleepy. hang up and i can't sleep. was tossing and turning around my bed. i think i've told my body not to sleep and that's why. what's more, in the afternoon i slept for 4 hours and woke up feeling a little tired. i guess my period is the cause why i'm feeling rather tired. LOL!! i'm not tired but lazy can? don't have the mood to do anything. i've thinking what to do, where to go, who to call/contact and the list goes on and on and on and on and on...Anyways, i'm still mesmerised with my Victoria's Secret perfume. just feel extra happy everytime i look at it. haha. woke up late today and now i feel like killing smn but i just don't want to commit a crime. yea. i'm such a goody goody good person. haha. like real...
Loves!
MamaLemon(:
Labels: Fragrance of Victoria's Secret
♥A @ 14:52
Monday, December 1
Presents and comments... @ 23:40
PERIOD!i'm seriously dog tired and worn out with the two events held during the weekend which is just over. i am seriously lacking of sleep and just now i slept from 5.3opm to 9.30pm. actually planned to only nap for 1hr but was too tired to wake up and even missed my all-time favourite show on Suria. chopped my frienge and trimmed and make my hair thinner in the afternoon. i'm happy with my hair but not my fringe. gonna ask Ateeq's sis to do my fringe one day.
apart from my tiredness i'm still feeling happy as i received new present ytd from Mak Busu. let me share a little with all of u what really happened on Saturday and Sunday but more on Sunday as i've blogged about Sat. Here it goes.........
Saturday:
REceived lots of presents and money too...
1st present:
This was from Radin the pretty. She says this resembles my bubbly attitude. Thanks for this. I'll make use of it next year. (:2nd present:
This was from Ateeq the LameJoker. I'll use it to frame our picture. Thanks!
3rd present:
This was from my all-time favourite aunty. Cik Ana the greatest aunt i ever had. She knows what i like. yea, Winnie the pooh. This is a great gift as i can put my love letters and birthday cards or anything. Thanks!
4th present:
This was from Hamka the HamHam. he gave me this with a piece of budget paper. (tat's according to him la) idc la...the thought that counts ok! LOL! the reason behind this was to give my other pooh new friend so they won't be bored seeing the same face everyday. It's now with me in my bed. haha. Thanks!
Money i got:
This was mainly from my aunts and uncles and 1 was from Ateeq's mum. now my money is idk how to say. haha. Thank You!!
Sunday:
This was from Mak Busu my twin sister. (that's what she said) This was one of my favourite apart from the Winnie The Pooh letter thingy. It's SUPERMODEL by VICTORIA'S SECRET. OMG...i was mesmerised with what i got the moment i unwrapped the gift. (: Love the smell and now i'm addicted to Victoria's Secret apart from The Body Shop.
Let me end today by saying, i'm gonna cut my fringe further and i'm happy to know that he's willing to let me go and i'm happy that he understands me. Thanks You!
Loves!
MamaLemon(:
♥A @ 23:40