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28 November

"♥Amalina!"

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Fufilled!
Champion for Prove IT! competition
New Friends
Work
Pooh bear
Unfufilled!
Part time work
DSLR Camera
Cornrow hairstyle
Driving License

Gossips!

Escapades!

Jukebox!

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Monday, September 29

Next post @ 23:25

people, my next post might be very violent and it'll be post of the Fasting month; Ranadhan. everything about this month will be posted in the next one. i hope that no one will be offended as it's my say and it's called:
Ramadhan in the eyes of Amalina. (:

be prepared to see:
-sarcasm
-vulgars
lastly, my say about this month.

After the post, i'll start afresh and i'll try to transform myself to fit in my needs. lol!!! my needS?? haha...ok. that's all. just a reminder, if u're interested to know what i think about Ramadhan, c ya in the next post!!

Loves!
MamaLemon(:

♥A @ 23:25

Festive mood @ 22:38

Finally

the second part of N Level has arrived. The days pass so quickly without me noticing it. Thinking back, i thought that it's just ytd that i'm in Secondary 4. now, my S4 life is coming to an end. today sat for 3 papers from 9.45am to 4pm. Obviously, with breaks in between. (:

The truth is,

i didn't open up any book ever since the last paper which is Social Studies. i guess. i only studied for SS and what i studied didn't came out. i started to give up in studying. i believe in paying attention during lessons, clear my doubts and o homeworks. I never studied even for all of the pevious class test. thus, i went in the examination hall with finger-crossed.

Chemistry paper:

It's the first paper of the day. only did 1 2003 N level paper in TYS ytd in the train. did okay. today, the paper turns out to be fairly ok. have confidence in just passing the paper. JUST PASSING ok. nth more. C5 is ok for me. haha. i sucks in chemical formula and stuffs. i just close an eye and just insert anything i can.

Biology paper:

didn't even studies for biology. fingers-crossed again. did the paper smoothly and stucked for some time as i don't know what word to be used. overally, i have confidence in passing biology paper. B3 is good enough for me!!

Maths paper I:

It's badly done. managed to do most of the 1 mark question others sucks!! eally sucks alot!! i hate Maths N Level paper 1 very much. haha. paper 2 is like in a few days time. 3rd day raye lg. aduh!! kacau mood btol!!

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it was different today. was alone till i met Evann. thank god i still have her and Ateeq around. i wasn't feelng good to go to schol today as there's some things i can't hide from people. Not my pimple!! haha. it's more of a feeling deep down inside my heart. i felt akward when she returned me back my stuffs in that manner. i don't mind u borrowing it for a long time but i don't like the way u pass it to me. i might act normally but deep down inside, only Allah knows how i feel. (:

Didn't wake up for pre-dawn meal again. haha. lucky thing i ate spaghetti that aunt made at around 1am. was nervous and all sorts of feelings around me. haha..

Tomorrow!!

it's dooms day man!! 4 injections one day. Tan Tock Seng Hospital, tmr i'm coming. Dont' run away ok!! LOL!! i'm actually nervous i don't know how i will be after the injections. thanks for the words of encourgement from u guys!! (:

p.s: Pictures will be posted soon.

Loves!

MamaLemon(:

Labels: Selamat Hari Raya

♥A @ 22:38

Saturday, September 27

Geylang @ 22:44

Finally, headed to Geylang with family. bought some stuffs. in lov with this heels. OMG!! i will be tall if i wear it. haha. it's comfortable and nice. haha. black. my favourite colour recently. haha. didn't buy it as i'm not really sure if i really rally want that heel. got back my Baju Kurung. was not happy as it didn't turn out to be what i want. damn that tailor!! kain songket lg. wasted siol. tpi it's still nice. da la tk ltk shoulder padding utk aku. eeeee!!!! geram tau!!! not happy and i'm not going to send anything to u anymore. nasib tk kecik. haha. most probably i'll be heading down to Geylang tmr again. to buy some more stuffs. it'll be my last day out. after that revise. monday after the papers, i'll be resting at home. hibernating. haha. tuesday is vacinnation day. damn it. told MyMrCute about it and he say it's only injection. nth to be afraid of. thanks dear! finally he's home. Wednesday night he'll book in again. Lucks dear! told him i miss him and he said he miss me too. haha. yeah! he miss all of his friends.

Note to self:

-No relationship!

-No feelings for anyone!

-Be your ultimate self Amalina!

p.s: i miss MySunshine very very very very much...wonder how is he doing right now.

Loves!

MamaLemon(:

♥A @ 22:44

Friday, September 26

Finally @ 14:50

Finally it is FRIDAY.

What so great about FRIDAY Amalina?

Friday is the end of the weekdays. Next week is the most exciting and a week i've been waiting for. It's been 26 days that the Muslims had been fasting. it's so fast. i just thought that it was just last week that we'd start fasting. Time flies really fast. lk let me share with u what's going to happen.

Saturday(27/09/08)

Achik booking out. it's like FINALLY!! haha..he's been counting down the days to book out. haha. very funny. he's becoming more sweet and funny? haha. not really sure about that. what i can say for sure, he's more desciplined and much more sweet-er before serving NS. haha. anws, hope u're doing really good and grow more muscles okay? LOL!!

Monday(29/09/08)

This is the day that could be the worst for all 4NA students. We will br taking 3 papers on that day. from 9.45am to around 4pm. How can this be? It's really ridiculous!! our brains can't really function. we might have been studying for almost everyday but, 3 papers in a day?? is very ridiculous!!! what's worst, Maths paper 1 is the last. it will commence at 2pm and ends at 4pm. 2 hours? i hope it will be long enough for me. Maths in the afternoon? OMG!! just hope my brains will function really well and i won't be tired. After Maths, if i'm not smiling there's sth wrong ok.

Tuesday(30/09/08)

In the morning i don't have anything so i guess i'll be hibernating till around 11am or 12nn? for this, i'm not really sure. must wait till i get the consent form about the vaccinations. afternoon i'll be obviously crying like hell. haha. i'm a girl who is scared of needles. besides, after this vaccination, i need to go for my blood test as my Baby Booklet didn't state what's my blood type. OMG!! i'm going to die okay. it's the eve of Hari Raya and i'll be getting advance Hari Raya gift from the doctors. like i said, a gift from the doctor. have been hoping that i won't have any side effects or i can't focus and don't talk about celebrations. for sure, i can't be celebrating with heavy hands.

Wednesday(01/10/08)

Finally, the day every Muslims have been waiting for. it's Hari Raya. a day where all comes together, seek for firgiveness adne yea, u'll see lots of people crying, laughing, smiling and more. haha. but, it's a day full of pain for me!! imagine going for 4 types of injection the previous day? will u get better the next day? what the shit!! nvm. as long as i get lots of collection i'll be happy. haha. i'm not going to show my pain-ess and whatever related to my injection. boohoo!! as if i don't. i'm just afraid that people will hug me. this is especially so for my gran's and aunties. after seek forgiveness, i'll be getting a kiss and hug from them.haha. OUCh!!! my arm!! nvm. try not to let them touch that part. haha. it'll be a long day. will be taking numerous pictures especially after learning some photography techniques. thanks to DAVID PETERSON!! will be blogging will not be blogging. not really sure. haha.

TODAY(26/09/08)

i'm need to really clean my house. hmm. i should as tmr most probably i'll be going to Geylang. haha. just buy a little more stuffs. last minute shopping as mom's busy siblings all schooling and me, slacking, studying and more. haha. ok. i just woke up. imagine, waking up at 3pm? haha...freak right? after this, go bathe then clean my house.

Loves!

MamaLemon(:

♥A @ 14:50

Thursday, September 25

traumatised @ 15:32

i have been busy since ytd. woke up at 12pm and rushed to school for meeting. meet up with Ateeq and Evann. went to AVA room for the meeting. the meeting has started. we joined in and i was

SHOCKED

to get to know that our vaccination is up to a maximum of 4 types.

Mr Fok: You will get up to a max of 4 types of injections.

Me: What? 4 types? OMG!! can i don't take?? i feel like dying...

meeting continued. i was still in a traumatised state. imagine, 4 types of injection a day. it will be on next

Tuesday!! eve of Hari Raya!!

damn right?? i guess i'll be helpless that night. and i will just rest, feeling tired. i just hope i wont't get any affects. ji'm still not sure if i'm fasting on Tuesday or not. some say we can't fast if we're going for vaccination some say can. told mom that i'm not fasting on Tuesday and dad says it's the eve of Hari Raya. told him i need to take 4 injections. he told me that i can still fast. hmm. i'm confused. nvm. i'll still fast and will still pay back. i won't waste the last day of Ramadhan ok. it's wasted if i don't get to fast on that day. that night i hope i'll be damn fine.

i must be very careful on the 1st day of Hari Raya. people might accidentally touch or what ever to my arm. and it's going to be damn pain. if i don't scream to him/her count yourself lucky. if i did, i'm damn sorry. don't mean to. i went for 4 types of injection ok. and it's going to be totally pain. what's more, i'm

afraid of needles!!

Evann said that i'll confirm cry like hell. haha. yea. BEWARE of me on the 1st day of Hari Raya. i guess i'll cry like mad during seekng for forgiveness. haha. i did last year. not that worst. this year i guess it'll be worse as i'm sad and in pain too!! OMG!! i'm so scared of Tuesday, 300908. it's a crying for me. prepared to see me in my worse situation. i'll be damn helpless. so, don't ask me for help. only that day.

anws, back to the meeting. decided to perform Dikir Barat back in India. Mr Amran helped us with the tune and stuffs. such as the movements and more. me and Hamka will be the lead. it's funn singing that song. haha. really fun. but, the difficult thing is we need to know how to sing in other language. but it's fun. practice will be held after EOY and N level.

i just hope there'll be no effects after the injections because, i want to enjoy my Hari Raya and i've done a lot for that day. and next paper is on the Friday itself. can't afford to be sick!! okay, i guess that's enough for me. i'm still in a traumatised state. but still, i'm cleaning my house and helping mom to do the different types of kuih. so yea, good luck to everyone and hopefully nth happen to me.

Loves!

MamaLemon(:

♥A @ 15:32

Tuesday, September 23

A new me @ 20:45

can i say that i'm officially a new person? haha. yes i am. i won't be th old me. i am going to be someone who will be happy everyday. happier than before. i will be more straight foward. i will be more hardworking in school and at home. i won't b staying in school doing nth. i am not going to waste my precious time anymore. i just hope people will accept me. i don't care what people might say. what i can feel right now, people are talking behind my back. Amalina this, Amalina that. for god's sake, MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS!! i dont' give a damn anymore. say what u want, i can't shut your mouth up for u. eventually when u're tired u'll stop. i know i'm not perfect and stuffs. but, i still have feelings ok. go ahead if u want to hurt my feelings or what. but i believe one day, Allah will teach u a lesson. i'm trying to turn over a new leaf. it's not that i've done sth bad or what. but, i feel like i need a change. people will change one day. and it's my turn to change. for this post, i have no offence in any indirect hurting of people's feelings. but, this is what i think i should be doing. i'm changing for my own good. not for anyone or not beacuse of anyone. but for me and my future.

All the best to all of my friends who is seating exams or going to seat for it soon. I'm aware that EOY is round the corner. good lucks to my juniors and everyone i know. (:

Loves!
MamaLemon(:

♥A @ 20:45

promise @ 19:44

promise. what is a promise to u? stop promising if u don't think u can do it. someone promised to me something. but that promise isn't fulfilled. i don't mind u promising me but think before u promise. i hope it won't happen again next time. u didn't even msg or call me. i text-ed u but, u didn't reply. i'm worried about u and i hope u are ok. i trust that u're busy with your stuffs. i shall wait for your msgs and calls. i don't mind what time that will be but at least make the effort to msg or call me k? i'm really waiting. thank goodness u did apologise and explain to me why u didn't call or msg me. i really love u. =p

Loves!
MamaLemon(:

♥A @ 19:44

Monday, September 22

the feeling is back @ 15:35

oh Allah, why does this feeling comes back? i don't want to remember about my past anymore. it makes me feel rather sad and i can't stand it. i'm trying hard to forget about him but it's just not working. nth help me to forget about him. i know that me and him isn't meant to be together. i can accept that fate but, it's just so hard for me to forget abou him. it's been up to 2 yrs. although we're together for a month or two but still, the memories is difficult to be forgotten. how we met, how he got my number, how he tried to lie to me about his identity, fighting on the phone and how he apologise to me about what he had done to me that touches my heart and i cried and the way he ask me to if i'm crying and ask me to wipe away my tears. it's just so difficult for me to forget about this. he means a lot to me. but, we're not meant to be together. that's obvious. but no matter what, i still have his number, i still remember his number and i'm not sure if he's using the same number or changed it. but, i still love him. he's my bestfriend ever. i just hope that he'll contact me. miracles do happen.

there's one time i was out with Ateeq. the night before, he text-ed me. since i was asleep, i didn't notice it. the next day i tetx-ed him back. he didn't reply and so i called him. he said he was busy and so was i. he also said that he'll call meback but, it's been 3 months since he last called me. i just want to know how is he now. i don't want anything else but i just want to know how is he getting on. that's all. tears keep flowing down my cheek every night when i think about him. reflecting about how we react to each other during the very first time we met. it was rather funny. i can still laugh, smile and even shed my tears thinking about him. once he make me listen to a song i fel in love with it. if i'm not wrong, it's Fall For You by Secondhand Serenade. i'm guessing it anyhow. this guy really tech me the meaning of true love. i promised i will take care of u even if u're attached or what. so long as u're my friend, i will take care of u. i can't bear seeing u sad. Ariffin, u're badly missed by me. i'm not desperate or what but i mean what i say. i just hope to bump into u. but i can't recall how u look like. that's really sad. i'll be on cloud nine if u text me or contact me. i promise i'll text u on eve of Hari Raya. i'll do that.

Loves!

MamaLemon(:

♥A @ 15:35

sorry @ 00:14

to my dearest four friends. i know it's not nice for me to pen down such thoughts about u guys. but, i really can't help it anymore and as u can see, i'm not a straight foward person. ok call me COWARD if u wish. but, for real, i just feel so damn bad after teeling off smn. be it u want to deny it or what. but, it just feels soooooo bad for me. and during that time, i'm just not in my soul. for this, i can assure u people. i've been wandering around looking for my soul. and i'm truly sorry to know what i think about u guys are wrong or what. but, to me that's how i feel about u. so yea, don't need to sit and talk things out and it's solved! i'm also aware that u didn't ask anything from me but, u people know me right.(tkya aku explain2) great that u appreciate me or whatsoever. about the tissue thingy, i'm not refering to u guys. sorry if u guys are hurt. i just want us to be happy. and sorry if i'm no longer with u guys anymore. and girl, u have the right to be angry with me. no apology accepted as u did the right thing. this means, u did nth wrong. i'm glad to have such friends. and yea, i know who my true friend really is. once again, i'm truly and deeply sorry to have such thoughts about u people. and yea, pooh bear is childish and i'm no longer that type of person anymore since u people are far away from me. keep in touch yea.

sempena bulan ramadhan dan syawal yg bakal menjelma,
aku ingin menyusun 10 jari memohon maaf.
aku harap krg tk akan amek hati ngn ape yg aku da prna uat kt krg.
aku, on the other hand telah maafkn krg.

this means, do keep in touch and if u wish update me if u want. i don't have a true bobf as for now. but, i'll soon have one. i'm truly sorry and those stupid posts will be deleted instantly from my blog so no more hard feelings ok. like u said, no enemies. i love u girls. thanks for everything and sorry again.

Loves!
MamaLemon(:

Labels: thanks for the memories

♥A @ 00:14

Sunday, September 21

my say @ 17:21

i have been squeezing my brain juice to keep on thinking about this damn stupid matter. i've made up my mind and come to an end. i'm letting u go. but to u, i might still be yours or whatever. but, if u really regard me as urs, come find me personally. contac me personally. stop giving excuses. u have been saying u're busy with this and that but, u can contact others but not me. i've had enough of this. if u really want me to be yours, u better contact me. i can't live in this kind of situation anymore. sorry if this hurts. to people out there who reads this piece of fucking post, u better shut your bloody hell mouth up and don't leak or speak a word about this matter!! never ask me about this.

Loves!
MamaLemon(:

♥A @ 17:21

voice of my heart @ 14:33

i don't think i should receive this kind of treatment from u. i don't like to continue this way. it's just not right. u keep giving me excuses for not contacting me. me on the other hand is contacting my guy friends. i just don't like it this way. i feel like i'm not attached and i can do whatever i want. u get what i mean? if i'm attached, i shouldn't be contacting with any other guys unless otherwise needed. at least if u contact me, i feel the sense of secure. i hate it when we have to contact through a third person. i can't really rely on her very much. she still have her own life to go on with. i don't ask her about u anymore as i feel like i'm troubling her very much and i think this should be ur job. i'll just wait for ur DAMN msg or call. there's a limit to every patience. by doing all this, u think it makes me happy? it makes me feel terrible and bad. to me, i'm doing sth wrong by contacting my guy friends. never crossed in my mind to two time u. NEVER. but, if things doesn't change i have nth to say. i just hope that u'll contact me. i really have no intention to break any ties. but, this kind of thing can't go on. some essential things that are needed to love someone is fading. seriously, i really hope u will contact me as soon as possible.

Loves!
MamaLemon(:

Labels: my heart is tearing apart.

♥A @ 14:33

Saturday, September 20

@ 00:45

Sorry MyMrCute.

DAMN!! he text-ed me when i'm afp(away from phone). was busy baking my Butter Cake. no one rmed me that i received a msg. i'm sad i can't call him. the way he text-ed me is so cute. he said: sorry i didnt reply your msg. was having fun with my platoon mate. now i'm damn free. so, u know what to do right?

i didn't even reply him back. feel so bad. it's like very rude. but i know that he understand my position. boohoo!! he's so understanding!! thanks dear!! haha..Loves! i promise u that i'll call u tmr. that's if u want la. (:

Loves!
MamaLemon(:

♥A @ 00:45

Friday, September 19

@ 21:51

Damn it!!

my blog is having some damn stupid problems. i don't know why but it messed up my posts. i'm very2 sorry...

Labels: SORRY

♥A @ 21:51

baking day @ 21:51

today i woke up at 9am feeling tired and went to sleep again when mummy's out. slept untill 1pm. took a bath and continue with my baking. it was awesome!!! eventhough it's tiring as i didn't wake up for pre-dawn meal. but baking really utilised my time well. baked my pineapple tarts. it was marvellous and delicious!! haha.. baked buter cake again. it was very awesomely done!! so happy. while waiting for it to be bake, took some pictures. funny pictures and never-to-be-forgotten-memories.

p/s: my card balance is low and i'm not topping up any soon as i want to be focused. anything, just text me or call me at my house. thanks!

MyMrCute is adored!!

that's all kiddos.

Loves!
MamaLemon(:

Labels: i adore MyMrCute

♥A @ 21:51

busy moments @ 21:51

ytd didn't have the time to blog as i'm out from noon to night. noon went to ICA building. so stunned to see the 'crowd'. there's no crowd. me and ateeq thought that we'll be waiting for 1hour and more. but, it's even less than 30minutes. the entire place was so damn freaking cold. i'm sensitive to cold now. haha. can't be long in air condition-ed room. i don't know why but it's just that i've been noticing me change in an air condition-ed room. my nose will start to paly music and eventually turns a little red. my nails will be pinkish-white and my feet tend to start freezing. i wonder how will i be doing in the airplane. hmm...let's think. haha.. ok. cut it out. after ICA, went to Tampines Mall. to kill time. then mrt-ed to Paya Lebar or what people say Geylang. haha. there's nothing much. didn't spend at all but did charity. haha. this boy suddenly pop-ed out from nowhere and ask us for a little bit of our time. then he said that i'm cute. my expresseion goes: what the heck man??? haha...trying to woo me is it? LOL!!

Since it's the month of Ramadhan, i shall donate. and since i have small cash with me too. felt awesome after donating. we proceed-ed to go jalan-jalan at Geylang. as usual, i was being disturbed. hmm. i just don't know why. nvm abt that. at 6pm we go buy some food to breakfast later on. just in case we won't reach home in time. and that's what happen. we breafast-ed in 98 bus. waited so long for 99 but in the end a single deck bus came. my expression was like: what the &*%$ man!! wait for so long to get this type of bus???

reached granny's house at around 8pm. i make-ed up aunt's face. haha...her eyebrow was such a mess!! not my fault. new in make-ing up people. in the end i get 6/10 for my overall make-ing up. haha. she also teach me how to do the eyebrow too..so happy that i learnt new skills. actually i'm fine dolling up myslef. but a little uncomfy to doll people up. haha.
PRACTICE MAKES PERFECT!!
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today was normal. went to granny's house and slacked. took some pictures and went home at 6.30pm. at 8pm went shopping with mummy to buy ingredients to make Kuih Raya. i'm baking butter cake for granny(both m/f sides), uncle and perhaps aunty? haha. i'm not sure if i have the time. haha. so busy studying for next N level paper. (:

okay. will blog if i have the time kays. i want to make kuih la..haha...progressing!!!!

that's all kiddos.

Loves!
MamaLemon(:

Labels: i love you boyfriend.

♥A @ 21:51

Wednesday, September 17

Yummy @ 20:08

finally the time i've been waiting for has come...haha...breakfast-ed. even i can't fast, i'm hungry. i don't know why but, whenever period come, i'll be having mood swings and feel hungry everytime. let's move on. today's menu is..actually there's a lot. but this dish is so yummy. i even added more chicken to my plate and rice too but not the gravy as it was extremely spicy la...i can't take spicy food. that's what my doctor advised me to do. but i do eat at times. haha. the dish is called

Ayam Lemak Cili Padi.

it's damn spicy ok. i'm not really sure about the name but it's roughly there. haha. okok. i ate the dish and it's so yummy.

psp is full of Hari Raya songs. it's my phone's turn now. i want to upoad stuffs to my psp but my small kid is playing with it now. freaking noisy la...keep begging me to play i don't know what game. actually he don't even knopw how to play. from just now he have been losing. haha. he's only 3 yrs old and there's nth i can do about him right? small kids are always cheeky, noisy and of course!!

CUTE!!!

that's all kiddos.

Loves!

MamaLemon(:

Labels: so yummy

♥A @ 20:08

cleaning in progress @ 12:59

currently cleaning my room while listening to Hari Raya songs, chatting, sending songs and watching tv.
Amalina!!! how can u do everything at a time??
LOL!! no worries, i can multi-task. not studying today. maybe at night i will study. i'm not like boyfriend. he don't need to go to school and don't need to study. actually, i don't really know if he's studying. i've not been studying so i must really study now. i don't want to be dissapointed when i get my results. Dad told me to start studying smartly from now. he says: "Once u get ur N level results, it'll determine how ur future will be like." i understand what he says.

i want to prove everybody that i can do it. especially to those parents who wants to compare academice resuls of their child with me. for this, i was told by granny and mummy.
what i can say is: I don't like this old fashion game!! i might not be good in terms of academic. but, in terms of social or other aspects, i might be good. i don't care if i receive bursary or what ever shit. i don't study to get all that. i study to gain my knowledge and hopefully to pass it on to whoever who is interested. Just stop all that.
although i feel bad when mummy and granny told me that this smn gets good results for whatever thing. but, i don't care. it isn't a challenge for me. why must i compete to get good results? i just want to be happy and i won't sacrifice my lilfe just to compete against others.

maybe some of u will disagree with what i say. but, for me i want to study for my own good. Not for the sake of my family. My family will be happy if i'm happy. i mean, if i study for the sake of them. i might not be happy. eg: i study well so they can talk about my academic results. or whatsoever. i hate that situation badly. this is why i prevent myself from going to my granny's house. but no offence to those who actually have been studying for fame. maybe for u it's a challenge. but don't be sad if u don't get what u want. i mean extremely sad. u always have a choice in life and u also have more then 1 try in life.

All the best to everyone!!

ytd talked to MyMrCute. he's
sOOoooOOoo sweeEEEEeeeeeeett.
he really chaned from the first time i know him. i even offered him a goodnight kiss. haha. but, i gave him in the goodnight msg. LOL!! he's so cheeky. never i expect he'll be smn like that. he sent me a sweet msg too. so sweet of u dude!! lucks for ur 9 more days in camp before booking out. haha.

boyfriend, i don't know what to talk about u. just one thing. I love u!!

that's all kiddos!!

Loves!
MamaLemon(:

Labels: smile always..

♥A @ 12:59

Tuesday, September 16

Happy moments @ 22:36

FINALLY!!

Gotten back my smile!! so happy!! thanks to Ateeq, Evann, Jerrick and those involved with the meeting just now. Even though the meeting was quite a waste of time and in the later prt of it was quite a whore, i still enjoyed it. was actually drinking small packets of Milo drink which me and Jerrick received from Mrs Chin as we're involved in a Cheer competition thingy. was actually sad to receive such a small thing.

Be thankful for what i get. That'll be the 1st thing u people will always say. Just imagine if u've won 2nd place for a competition and u'll receive 1 year supply of Milo. of course, u'll be expecting to get 1L Milo packets or sth else. In the end u get aa 125ml Milo packets and it's like 1 small paket for 1 month and 1 yr supply of such thing is 12 packets

how ________(FIB) u feel right?

The meeting was quite a whore in the end as J.E.S were unsatisfied with the teachers as most of the job we're done by us. we don't mind helping but we plan for the meeting and stuffs on our own. Without the teacher asking for help. We did this so that it won't be too last minute such as the bloody vaccination and some admin stuffs. We just feel that they should be responsible about such things and at least pop in during the meeting or sth. but we see none of this. we just hope tmr will be a good one.

Boyfriend, i really really really miss u tau. hope u're aware. sorry if i'm doing things u don't like as i don't know what u like and what u dislike. haha. not my fault. haha. love u.

p.s:

-Watched Evolusi: KL Drift. so fun siol!! vulgar are heard too. ^_^

-Saw some boys doing small business under a tree. Damn la!! Tk tau malu siol!! Tkde adab btol!! i hate those people. mcm nk sepak je muke. eeeeeeeeeee geram aku tau!!!!!!

that's all kiddos.

Loves!

MamaLemon(:

Labels: i love you boyfriend.

♥A @ 22:36

Monday, September 15

is this life? @ 20:02

today is he worst day ever.
1) 1st day period
2) period pain
3) quarrel with smn
4) broke a plate
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PERIOD

is always hated by me. absolutely. when period comes, i'll be having the worst mood swing ever. (actually, i don't have mood swing) besides that, the

UNBEARABLE pain that as u know, can't be beared.

I HATE PERIODS!! luckily didn't go to school today.

Quarrel? Amalina quarreled with someone today! smn she must and should respect. but, because of one small thing, she was being so rude to him. (i can't reveal who. only some know who) i was slapped and i know i deserve that. i cried not because of the pain but, the words that came out from his mouth. how much he care for me and stuffs, like that. till now, the words are still playing in my ear. after that, didn't speak to anyone and tears keep dropping.

BROKE A PLATE at the age of 16?? what an scene breakfasting with family(eventhough i can't) ...while eating, i wasn't focusing. i juat ate Lontong and slice of chicken. i'm drinking my cup of tea. it's about to finish when the cup slip of my hand and fell to the plate that breaks the plate into two. everyone is laughing. i wasn't really in a good state of mind. (not crazy but wasn't focusing) i took the broken plate, my glss and walked to the kitchen. place the things in the sink and went to the toilet where i close the door and cried inside. the words are still playing in my ear. went out of the toilet and proceed to bedroom where i throw myself on the bed.

boyfriend, i'm really sorry if i had hurt u in whatever ways. i just don't know what's in me that makes me feel like i'm not me. i'm really really really sorry. i really love u. only ALLAH knows how i feel.

that's all kiddos.

Loves!
MamaLemon(:

Labels: i'm sorry boyfriend

♥A @ 20:02

Sunday, September 14

boredom @ 15:05

how can i sieze the boredom i'm suffering? lol!! suffering? haha...basically, i've been watching malay dramas since 2pm. i just don't know what to do and i guess this damn post will be a short one. i'm starting to study tmr. i mean, really study. this means, no computer till i finish study, no phonecalls, no msgs and lots of stuffs is going to be a NO NO to me. haha. just hope i can bare with it la. since i've dwnlded more Hari Raya songs, i'll upload it to my phone and listen to it while studying. study biology for 2 hrs, chemistry for 2 hrs and maths till i lose my focus. haha.
talked to MyMrCute last night at arnd 11pm to 11.30pm. he wanted to sleep but he can't and so planned to talk to me. lol. i'm his lullaby. that's what he say as he was saying, he must talk to me everyday. haha. he wasn't feeling well and get to know he forget to bring some stuffs to camp. haha. last minute pack what. i've expected things to be missed out. haha. hope that he'll be fine today. boyfriend, i love you.

that's all kiddos.

Loves!
MamaLemon(:

Labels: i love you boyfriend.

♥A @ 15:05

Saturday, September 13

thousands of apology @ 20:46

i'm really sorry for those crap i've been blogging. i just feel that i'm not the Siti Nur Amalina i used to be. so yea, just tolerate with this girl for the moment ok. one thing i din't really show to boyfriend is that, i really love him al0t. i'll do anything for u. but there's the limits tau. haha.
i'm really sorry.

SORRY...

Loves!
MamaLemon(:

♥A @ 20:46

crying heart @ 20:09

i'm jealous with everyone. i don't know why but i just feel that way. i always wish to be like them but, i don't think that could change. i want to be alone. just alone. yes, only myself. but, i can't because it will only lead me to be smn who is more short tempered and smn who will be isolated from people and i hate to be in that situation!! i don't feel like i'm attached. it's just so complicated. we contact through a third person. this isn't right but he(i think) said he'll contact me within this short period of time. it's been a week and we've yet to talk on the phone and yet to contact me personally. life is getting more miserable. i thought having smn in my lif will change my ilfe but, nth happen since. i just need to wait for don't know how long till u really make me smile. u're the key to my happiness syg. it's only u. i might been talking to many guys, but u're still the one who managed to won my heart...they are just my friends who i can't neglect even if i'm attached or even married. i won't let anyone control who can/can't be my friends. luckily, u're not doing that. i just hope u won't and hope that u'll contact me asap.

that's all kiddos.

Loves!
MamaLemon(:

Labels: bits and pieces of my life.....

♥A @ 20:09

what am i going to be? @ 19:13

my life is such a whore now. i feel like i'm not myself anymore. i'm feeling very weird this few days. this feeling is just there whenever i wake up. i'm becoming tired and helpless more and more each day. why can't i just feel calm everyday?? i might be smilling to everyone but, i'm faking that smile to everyone. deep down inside, only ALLAH knows how i feel.

ytd had a chat with Achik at around 11pm. he was very bored that he text-ed me to call him if i'm not asleep. since i wasn't sleeping i called him. he made me smiled and laughed and yea, it was great u know, to feel a little happy in the inside. hang the phone at around 12midnight.

minutes after, Sunshine text me and said he'll call me in a few minutes time and we had a nice chat the whole night. talk, laugh and crap till 2am. he went to sleep and ask me to wake him up for pre-dawn meal. i set my alarm clock and i did woke up for that minute and called his phone and his mom answered my call and i say, "auntie can u wake him up? he asked me to call him to wake him up." she was like "wake him up huh? ok sure will do." i don't rmb saying thank you to her. was damn sleepy that i waited for her reply but nth so, i hang up the phone and sleep.

wasn't doing much today. just slacked and watched tv. so bored and didn't know what to do. don't plan to go out and so, i slacked at home. watched this Golden Path drama at ch8. chinese drama with subtitles and it was so good. i love the show.

just had my dinner and i'm not feeing well now. i just feel like sleeping and don't want to be disturbed. i've been waiting for boyfriend's msgs or calls but to no avail, i got nth. i'm trying my best to think positive and trying to study. but it seems like i don't have the heart to study now. maybe i'll start next week. boyfriend, i miss u a lot. do yo know that? anws, i just hope u'll contact me asap.

that's all kiddos.

Loves!
MamaLemon(:

Labels: i love you boyfriend.

♥A @ 19:13

Friday, September 12

my pathetic life @ 19:43

why can't i just be like those people who are close to me? why is there always the inner side of me who is jealous of them. i'm life fucking jealous with them hanging around with boys, sms-ing during lessons and talk about their boyfriends. me? i can only listen to them and just shut up. i can talk about boyfriend, but, what's there to talk about him?? he didn't contact me due to some reasons(and i don't fucking care about it). i just hate the life i'm having now. why can't i be happy jusst for a day? why must i always be sad and moody and helpless all the time. why? tell me why? i just can't help it anymore. parents? they're leading their own life and me, i'm just smn who burden them all the time. especially dad. so ya, whose there for me when i need smn? i don't have anyone? being lonely at home makes me think that i'm a crazy girl who doesn't have a family. life is so suckish at this point of time. i just hope boyfriend will be there for me. i thought, being in tis relation with him will make me happy everyday but, it proves me wrong!! damn it!! but, i still love u no matter what. i just hope u'll be there for me in the future. if u're busy with that kid, just tell me. i'm fine with u entertaining the kid 24/7. seriously, i'm fucking fine with it. this really leaves me with: do u still want me to be smn special in ur life? do tell me a straight answer. i'll appreciate it even if it breaks my heart or what. don't care about my fucking feeling.

That's all kiddos.

Loves!
MamaLemon(:

Labels: i do love you boyfriend. show me that u feel the same too.

♥A @ 19:43

boyfriend @ 19:25

boy-friend, i feel like there's no connection between us. it just seems like if the one who cares about u and stuffs. i don't want anything from u but i just want u to give me the assurance that u still love me as friends perhaps. that's all that i want from u. please, i really hope u'll change ur ways. (this is not boyfriend of mine that i'm referring to is just normal friends)

boyfriend, i am always by your side. do u know that i'm not like a derperado? haha...that's how i am when i know u the 1st time. till now, it's exactly 1 week and yet u didn't contact me personally. my feeling for is getting stronger. jauh dimata dekat dihati gitu la...haha...i really love u. take care dear!

That's all kiddos.

Loves!
MamaLemon(:

Labels: i love you boyfriend.

♥A @ 19:25

unknown..... @ 17:54

today was so fucking tired. slept right after calling MyMrCute(Achik) who is boring back in his camp. haha...kate NS mesti la boring!!! haha...can't sleep as it was superduperdamn warm in the room. finally manage to sleep and wwas half awake at 8am. checked my phone and there's 2 msgs from MySunshine. damn la...didn't realise it. didn't evn wake up for pre-dawn meal as i'm on the holiday mode. lol!! anws, 1 of his msg was asking what i'm doing which is at 0150am and the next is asking me to do a favour for him. which is to wake him up for pre-dawn meal. the msg was sent at 0309am. i was sleeping like a corpse. haha.
i'm really very sorry dear for not waking u up. really very sorry. i love you. haha.

boyfriend, why are u like not contacting me eh? pelik btol ni bdak. tk tau ape nk ckp psl die...whatever it is, do take care of ur child properly. give him all the love u can give him...haha...anything do text me...(:

That's all kiddos.

Loves!
MamaLemon(:

Labels: i love you boyfriend.

♥A @ 17:54

Faker @ 13:26

this post is for the 'beloved' faker who keep on using my NICK!! for goodness sake, revel urself and stop faking me.. my English isn't that bad and my shortform spelling isn't like that. DAMN YOU!! use my nick like nobody's business!!! F***!!! seriously, i'm so angry with people who use my nick without my permission...i'm quite surprise that he/she knows my used-to-be nick: LaughingGeek ...DAMN la...so pissed now...I HATE FAKERS!!! REVEAL YOURSELF!!!

when i'm so pissed suddenly there's this unknown guy in my MSN ask me to send him this Hari Raya song that i'm listening. i was quite shock when he say "send me this song." in my mind i was thingking, how on Earth he know what song i'm listening. haha. i rmbered i turned on the 'Show What I Am Listening To' thingy..haha....anws, i'm in the processing of downloading Hari Raya songs. Do ask from me if u want.

That's all kiddos.

Loves!
MamaLemon(:

Labels: i hate fakers

♥A @ 13:26

Wednesday, September 10

Day out @ 21:31

Pictures taken just now:

this is funny la..

Ateeq's hair is cool...

act cute huh??haha...

mum woke me up this morning for pre-dawn meal. told her i can't. just say i can't. she thought i can't fast. woke up at 5.05am and went to the dining table. nothing was left. ^_^

i ate biscuits and i'm full after eating 4pieces. i lasted through out the day with only eating 4 pieces of biscuits and a sip of tea. *grin*

supposed to go school today but chose not to as i prefer staying at home. decided to go out with Ateeq. wanted to go Bugis but we thought that it's so boring and we're only planning to jln-jln, not shopping. trained to Outram Park where we changed train that go to Harbour Front. went to Vivo. just jln-jln. cuci mata aku. haha. went to Toy's R Us. lot's of bears. i'm eyeing for this pooh thingy. so cute. haha. went round and round and round till we're tired and planned to go Airport. jln2 at terminal 3.

go to Harbour Front station and we want to go t Henderson Waves. went out through Exit D and saw a forest like scenery. both were afraid to go but still we walked into Mount Faber Park. it was full of staircases which is quite steep. decided to just go airport. trained to airport. took skytrain to T3. we go to the viewing mall and seat at a place where we took some pictures and went home at 4.30pm.

trained to City Hall and go out as there was a retarded man which was opposite of us and keep looking at me. i opened up my maths TYS and flip the pages just to direct my attention away from him. DAMN IT!!!! alight at City Hall to wait for the next train. trained to Jurong East. bused to JW to go Bazar jap to buy sth. walked to Ateeq's home to do sth. walked home and clean my face before breakfasting. (:

boyfriend, how are u doing? i hope u're fine. and hope that the 2 year old child isn't really a nuisance to u yea. haha. anws, just treat him like ur own child. (:

p.s: boyfriend, i hope the pictures is enough.

That's all kiddos.

Loves!
MamaLemon(:

Labels: i love you boyfriend.

♥A @ 21:31

Tuesday, September 9

bored @ 19:50

damn!! vaccination? malaria pills? must i actually go for all this? do u know that i'm afraid of needles and bitter tast pill??? the most i far of is the needle!!! damn it la!! so pain seh!! can't believe that i'm doing it. nvm...need to get ready passport, photo and die, die must know my blood type. hmm..this means go for a blood test?? NO!!!!! needles again?? omg!! my life is full with needles suddenly. really, really, really, really scared of needles. omg!!! can't believe it's happening...

today was just a waste of time. only studied during Geography lesson. damn right?? the rest of the day was spent on listening to songs, talking, laughing and crapping...after school went to Ateeq's place. make-over her hair. it's rally nice. extremely great!! how i wish it could be mine. but, i love the hair i'm having right now. ppl keep asking if i perm it or not? it's natural curl ok. haha. but girlfriends was stunned to see my toddle pictres that my hair is not as curly as it is now. haha. some say it looks like twister fries. haha. nvr will it be twister fries. haha...

was super piss with dad. keep ordering ppl to do this and that. didn't even talk to him much since a damn bloody incident that makes me feel really sad and down. he's over-using his power as a dad. even my grandfather helps my grandmother to do some house chores. dad always thinks he's right. damn it la!! freak!! i don't wish to talk anything about him. make me boils!!

boyfriend, i really want to help u to babysit that cousin of urs. but, how can i do so? seriously, i really want to help u and pls accept my help okays?? i don't know how u can actually babysit a toddler for so long without even complaining...(i hope u didn't)...anws, i can still tolerate nonsense and excuses from u. hehe...(no offence okays.)

that's all kiddos.

Loves!
MamaLemon(:

Labels: i love you boyfriend.

♥A @ 19:50

Monday, September 8

boyfriend @ 19:05

dear boyfriend, pls contact me asap. i think we're troubling her u know. it's very inconvenient for her? can u see that? but, i really hope u'll be true to me. haha. u didn't show up ytd but at least, i have good reason to get out of the house. it's like, i'm always a loner when it comes to my paternal side. my cousins are all 12 and below. i can't be mixing with them though i mixed them when i'm younger. now i'm too big la...anws, i really love u and...and...and...u're damn funny. haha. hmm...i hope, by babysitting ur cousin it realy helps u huh...haha...

so boyfriend, treharu tk? i wrote about u lg. haha...want more? gimme sth abt u to blog about la. haha. hmm. what else to write abt u...hmm...oh ya, u cheer me up with ur funny msgs. hmm. it really help me. especially when i'm in this situation.

anws, u say my blog very jiwang?? aduh!! da bgos org blog psl kebaikan die. haha. nvm...still have more stuffs for u to read and hopefully, u'll understand the real Amalina...(:
anws, ure really the type of person i'm finding all this while. jgn kembang eh...haha...

that's all kiddos.

Loves!
MamaLemon(:

Labels: boyfriend., i love you

♥A @ 19:05

sadness @ 18:58

i think it's unfair to me. but, i have no rights in controlling ur life. we are not meant to be together. that's it. i shall not contact u anymore. do u know that i cried just now. how sad am i, u don't know. whatever it is, i'll try my best to direct my mind from thinking about u. it justs hurts when u said that to me just now. seriously it is. partly it's my fault. and it's ur fault too. ure just not the type for me. i nrd smn who is chatty and funny. but, u're not. i'm just not that type of person. life will be boring for me. anws, wish u have a happy life ahead.

that's all kiddos.

Loves!
MamaLemon(:

♥A @ 18:58

Sunday, September 7

tired+sleepy+lazy @ 13:52

boyfriend. i miss you and i love you.
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tmr school...lot's of stuffs to care about. studies, family and boyfriend. life has been good for me since u came into my life. how i wish u'll be with me forever. i really hope we can. even as friends. tmr i'll be starting to be in my studying mode. wll stop studying on the 011008. Hari Raya la seh. i want to enjoy too. haha. eat my favourite dish. 021008, start revising Geography. F&N last paper.

boyfriend, you prove me right in saying guys are all the same. once games are in their hands, they'll don't bother about what's happening around them. shall forgive you for this. i really hope u won't do it again. (but i think, u will.) hmm...

Amalina, let's put that behind your mind. let's just think what to where for today. i'm going Pasir Ris to break-fast with my paternal aunties. i'm actually lazy but what to do...

that's all kiddos.

Loves!
MamaLemon(:

Labels: i love my boyfriend.

♥A @ 13:52

Saturday, September 6

am i happy? @ 12:49

last night i watched this Mengejar Matahari drama at Suria. actually i don't plan to watch it. after my sis said it's based on a true sory, i tried watching. OMG!!! Ardi is so cute. Damar is so violent. Apin is always with his handy-cam and Nino smn who just follow what ppl do? i don't know how to say abt Nino. LOL!! it was quite a nice show and in the end, it teaches me sth. Anyone can come and go. True friends remain in your heart. I believe this ok!! it's seper really damn true!!

while watching was sms-ing my 'kakak' (ateeq's younger sis) and she's the so-called middle person in the conversation between me and this crazy guy. he's superduperdamn crazy. his craziness is unspeakable. was actually laughing and smiling while sms-ing and mum thought i'm crazy, as the show i'm watching is a sad story. instead of crying, i'm laughing and smiling. Damn it! it's all thanks to him!! sms-ed till 2am+. i even watched the news and some advertisements which is quite useful to me la. haha.

went into my bedroom. my room was in a mess!! not angry as both my sis was actually clearing some stuffs we don't want in our wardrobe. haha. i don't need to do anything. i just need to instruct them. while attending to them, we listened to the MJ12 on the radio. it was quite scary la. haha. i use to listen on my own, but instead i call ppl just to direct my attention away from the radio. i'm still sms-ing with them la. haha. he's so crazy and funny that i laugh and smile all the way. i was superduperdamn good to my siblings la. after smsing with them he stop and by then i was superduperdamn sleepy.

woke up at 4am+ for pe-dawn meal. damn it! i ate a lot la. my bro asked me: 'why u eat so much? usually 1 plate is enough. haha.' i was like yea, i know it and i think because Nasi Lemak is my favourite dish, i tend to add more la. but i add in small amt la. okok. enough of eating. i was so tired and went to sleep again lor. woke up at 11.30am when Amanda sms-ed me and say we're meeting at 12nn rite? and i was like, FREAK! I'M STILL SLEEPING. OMG!! i'm late as i was busy doing sth. haha.

p.s:-
-'m break-fast-ing at my grans house! yea! haha. but actually tired u know.
-pictures will be posted in the next post hopefully.

Yes, i am happy!!

I LOVE YOU!

that's all kiddos.

Loves!
MamaLemon(:

♥A @ 12:49

Friday, September 5

reunion cum break fast? @ 16:32

i'm planning to have this reunion thingy among my malay 6/6 friends, with Adzreen in. hmm. i just hope they'll agree on it la. hmm...time? date? place? Damn!! no idea... firstly, i need to contact each and everyone of them and fix this things with them. so, everyone will be there!!! my girlfriends? i have most of their numbers. boyfriends? i only have a few. Fitri have some too!! then, that'll be it!! if everyone's excited abt it, it;ll surely be on!! yea!! finally, this reunion cum break fast thingy will be a great and unforgettable one!!!!!

hope they'll agree to it..

p/s: Hairul, lollipop is a promise!!! haha. so, u'll surely get it from me. (:

that's all kiddos.

Loves!
MamaLemon(:

♥A @ 16:32

Mass update @ 13:12

been busy lately and can't really blog. i'm taking this chance to blog abt what had happened on Wed and Thurs.

Wednesday:

Took SS paper at 2pm. I was late. actually i'm 5 mins early for paper, but, as soon as i reached sch, everyone's in the hall. paper start when i've reached. ^_^
since i'm late, i stoned as soon as i open to the SEQ section. to my surprise, nth that i studied actually came out!! damn!!! SBQ was about Sri Lanka. Did SBQ for 1 hr and SEQ for 30mins. this is the worst that i've did. but i managed to write what i know abt the SEQ qn and finished the whole paper. at least, i did my best and finished my paper. Overall, SS was such a WHORE!!

Thursday:

English paper 1 commence at 8am. everything was fine except that, i didn't write my qn number on the cover page(mark is confirmed deducted). end of paper, many said that section B is Informal Letter. there goes my marks again. i did Speech Writting. Damn!!
English paper 2 commence at 10.30am. it was GREAT!! love reading the passage. it was interesting!! the summary was understandable!! Overall, English was GREAT!!

Friday:

i wasn't feeling well today. but, i'm still fasting!! weirdly, mum always scooped our large portion of rice for me during pre-dawn meal. everytime, i need to put the excess amt of rice back.(before eating) been tired this few days and today i slept till 12nn. i woke up as there were msgs sent to me.

p.s: Monday school starts again!!

that's all kiddos.

Loves!
MamaLemon(:

♥A @ 13:12

Wednesday, September 3

Hopes @ 10:27

Social Studies is my next paper!!! DAMN!! i hope SBQ is about Dipomacy & Deterrence s SEQ low chance of the theme being in any of the 3 questions. I'm really hoping that SEQ Sri Lanka will come out or Managing Healthcare. if not, good luck to me. 3questions to SEQ and 2 parts to each question. GOD BLESS ME!!

Oh Allah, please open my heart to accept the changes in my life now. please ease my mind when doing my SS paper later and please show me the way to the right path. Amin.

that's what i've been praying while i'm praying all this while. of course there is more...i really hope all my prayers will be fulfilled. i'd be the happiest girl on Earth ever!!

i hope i could really focus later on. paper starts at 2pm. hopefully the weather is cooling and not so warm. it affects my mind. lol!!

LOL ppl!! i mean, Lots Of Lucks!!

that's all kiddos.

Loves!
MamaLemon(:

♥A @ 10:27

Monday, September 1

Selamat Menjalani Ibadah Puasa @ 18:51

hanya satu hari. banyak yang telah ku tempuh. jgn ckp psl mkn, psl gado pun same la. in other words, under one roof la smue tu!! seriously, i nearly shouted at my dad just now. thanks to him!! always wants to 'fight' with me. luckily, iman aku kuat!! lol!! instead of shouting at him, i stormed into my room and switched on my tv and watch TV3 till just now and studied my ss too. prepared my stuffs for tmr and yea, get out of my comfort zone(my bedroom) and glued in front of the computer and blog!!!

NEWS:
I need 2 girls to replace 2 S'pore buddy for the upcoming India Trip. After subsidising, you only need to pay $360(inclusive of insurance and stuffs), can pay through edusave. 4D of sight seeing and 8D of school immersion with the Study Hall Students. You don't want to miss the chance. If you really want to experience the feeling getting to see Taj Mahal with your own eyes, you are welcome with open hands. Only applicable to Hua Yi students. preferably Sec 2 onwards. Not recommended to students taking O Level at the end of this year.
Date: 27/10/08 to 10/11/08
All fodd are considered HALAL!!

interested? contact me at 91207616(Amalina)

p.s: Selamat Berbuka!!!

that's all kiddos.

Loves!
MamaLemon(:

♥A @ 18:51