should i study for F&N? i'm so tired and don't feel like going for night study tonight. down here, some stupid asses are making a lot of noise. THANKS SO MUCH FOR THE NOISE!! I REALLY APPRECIATE IT!! feel so piss and feel like shouting straight to their face to SHUT UP!! i do appreciate noise but i don't appreciate too much of it. it's making feel like kicking their fat asses. can they just be a little considerate? i've been staring at them for about twice or thrice. but still, they're making a lot of niose. IRRITATING NOISE.. their noises are just not appreciated.

tmr is my last paper. F&N had been my favourite since last year. i'm trying to get distinction for that and i don't feel like studying for theory. AMALINA, YOU MUST STUDY. this is the voice of my angel side. i guess, i'm going to study at night and yea, ace in my F&N. i'm patiently waiting for my Prelim results. by then, i know that it's still not late for me to revise all my work. i don't want to put high hopes on getting a good result for my Prelim. this always happen and unfortunately, i don't manage to do well for all my exams. high hope may be good and it also will make u dissapointed even more. i've learn to stop having any high hopes on whatever i do.

Lurve,
Amalina
♥A @ 15:24

Maths paper was alright. was actually crying when i saw my friends in the morning and otw up to the hall...this happens because i didn't study the night before. i just only flip through the pages of the formulas. but nth go into my brain. but at least i distress by talking to epul. a new friend found. looking at the paper. i can roughly say that my n level paper in doable. haha. what a word. i'm going out to school now. lol. still need to re-do a done work which teacher can't open. so pissed!!! will blog again later. byebye

Lurve,
Amalina
♥A @ 12:05

today i can say that i really slack fro the morning till now. this will stop when i reach home and ready to study for tmr Maths paper. i'm expecting hell for tmr. haha. i hate maths as i don't understand and don't feel like doing my best for that. i'm a fast learner and also a fast forgeter. haha..

p.s: miss my Iryan Daniel and G.

Lurve,
Amalina
♥A @ 22:14

who am i to u? maybe i'm just a punching bag for u to punch whenever u're angry. if that's your answer, sorry to say, YOU ARE WRONG!!! i'm a normal human being who also have her own right to do what she wants. i hate it when some control whatever i want to do. i have my own perceptions and just leave me alone. i really hate it if u force me to do sth i hate. i'm so freaking fucked up and no one is here for me!!! even my close friends...i thought by going out with them and crap with them will actually make them think that i can't bear to lose them. but, i don't think they are all aware about it. as for now, i have nobody in life. my life needs to be rebuild. i want a proper life. with all the love that i could get and as many companions as i could get from everyone.

p/s: i'm fucked up as i need to re-do sth that i don't think i should be doing. and no one is here for me now.

Lurve,
Amalina
♥A @ 22:15

i'm sad with the fact that someone ill-speak about me...say something that i didn't do. nvr in my mind i want to speak bad about my close friend. but, that person just make me realised that i don't need a friend like her. till now, i still don't know who did it...and this can ruin my friendship with her. i just hope that she will trust me instead of that person who ill-speak about me. i'm so stressed up thinking about it. could hardly sleep that night. i just don't know what to do. i'm just dissapointed with that person. THANKS SO MUCH FOR YOUR GOOD EFFORT!! I REALLY APPRECIATE IT!!

ytd, went to town to give support to my senior. sth to do with teenage magazine. i'm so fucked up to have to go out with smn. my face expression changed and just listen to songs on the way to there. went to Takashimaya for awhile to meet with Fad's friends. but, waited for so long and went to another place to meet them. me and Faz headed back to The Heren and waited for the results and after which we headed to Lucky Plaza and eat. headed home and reached home around 11pm. called Iryan and talked with him for 2 hours. talked as though we know each other for a long time.

p.s: i'm trying to forget about G. but failed to. but he said he can't contact much due to some stuffs. i'm still thinking on whether i should forget about him or not.

Lurve,
Amalina

Labels: Dilemma

♥A @ 16:44

life has been rather stressful this days. has been studying all night for Prelims. wish if i could make time go slower. going for night study?? i'm not sure. maybe not as my stomach is making me go mad. and i'm rather tired too. feel like dying anytime this today. what can make me smile is by thinking about G. during the day, i think about G. at night, i study. i'm not expecting miracle to happen. but if it really happens, i don't mind. haha. i mean, i love it. haha. stop it Amalina. tmr is Maths paper 1 and malay oral at 2pm. after maths need to rush to F&N room to assist people with their practical. after oral will try my best to come back. no promises about that. SS was ok. don't have the hope to do well for question 4(a). i'm dying now. i guess, i must end today. i guess it's not time yet. re-practicing my Maths pre-prelim paper. i want to re-assure all those who thinks i'm not 16. I AM 16 THIS YEAR!! FOR GOD'S SAKE!!

p.s: miss my G, hope he's alright.

Lurve,
Amalina

Labels: i'm young at heart.

♥A @ 17:40

time flies really fast. in a couple of hours time is going to be my Geography paper. now, i'm still halfway done for my revision. hope to do it well tmr. tmr need to pass my thumbdrive to my teacher and look for Geoffrey at his class or canteen if he fails to look for me in the morning. it's confirmed that i'm cabbing to school tmr. with Geoffrey's stuff and i'm planning to wake up at 6.30 am. impossible to reach school by 7am. If this happens, Geoffrey can't find me and i need to wait till 10am to pass his stuffs to him. it's striking 11pm and i'm still at chapter 10. still have 3 more chapters to go!! i really need to pull up my socks really high. haha.

Lurve,
Amalina
♥A @ 22:46

hello world! i'm lucky to find myself still breathing normally in this big world... the morning moments and the drems made me reflect on what i've done to change my life. didn't go to school today as i'm down with fever. woke up at 12nn feeling a little refresh. transfer some stuffs from cam to laptop and thumbdrive to laptop. i've yet to study for my Geography paper tmr. planning to study at around 7pm. after dinner. don't plan to sleep early tonight.

I miss my G, my gf and school. i'm just too weak to get up in the morning to prepare myself for school. i'm really sorry G, i can't pass your stuffs today. Promise u tmr i'll pass it to you. study hard ok. 'ive high expectations on u, especially your F&N. ask me for help if u need to. i'm willing to help u. not only u, anyone who really wants to learn, i'm willing to help. XD.

Lurve,
Amalina

Labels: miss my G

♥A @ 17:25

life is just a fucking piece of thing. to own up for things u don't do might just be simple at times. but not when it needs a lot of sacrification. i feel so helpless at time and just feel like dying. one after another just crop up. my mind is corrupting real soon and prelims is like coming real soon. really felt so fucked up...can i just shout? i don't think that's a good idea. only my friends can distract my mind of the matter that bothers me. did all kind of stuffs to let go of this matter, but failed. went shopping, eating and sight-seeing. none works. can't wait to get to school tmr and just laugh my lungs out. or overload my brains with all the facts that i need to know for my exams.

p.s: miss my G.

Lurve,
Amalina
♥A @ 21:45

Practical exam started at 12.30pm. i started at 2pm. rush for all the ingredients. i'm so not prepared and i can't work well if i have so many things on my tray at one go. Freaky! it went on smoothly only that i didn't follow the time scheduled. but did it by 4hrs. luckily it was all well done. i really love the end product. will post the pictures real soon. the freaky part was the washing up. i need to was up for some other's things. it's so unfair for me. the freaky part of today was, my brastrap keep on snapping! just hope it won't happen again. now i'm so tired to do anything. can't even study. tmr still have SS and Geography lesson after school.

Geoffrey looks cute when he stick out his head out of the window. i must be normal to everyone. but, it's just the inner part of me that keeps on telling me hoe to treat someone. this means, everyone is treated differently by me. but i really hope i'll treat everyone with no prejudice. haha. wth i write. i guess the best solutions for me to post all the pictures is to link my photobucket to my blog. and therefore i'll try to link it up and post all the pictures together.

p.s: I miss my G.

Lurve,
Amalina

Labels: tired

♥A @ 20:03

Oh my, i can't posibbly forget about the Lucknow students. everyday i will walk the same route home and it reminds me of them. the roads along CRH remind me of them crossing the road as if the road is theirs. the end of the hall reminds me of them as they will always be there every morning. the staffs eating table reminds me of them as they will always be there during recess and lunch. everything just reminds me of them. their presence teaches me a lot about patience and endurance and all the challenges i have to face when we bring them out together. My room reminds me of the noise they created when they went to my house for a lunch. i just can't get them off my mind. the pictures tells everything that i can tell. how i enjoy my time and how i'm angry with them is the only thing i won't be able to describe. how pissed off am i to the people who keep calling me in the middle of the night and in the middle of my sleep. but, all is left as memories.

Lurve,
Mama
♥A @ 20:26

In the morning, we celebrated Racial Harmony. HuaYians performed and Lucknow students performed too. S'porean buddies were called up to the stage and supposed to dance with them. i was freaking embarassed as i don't know how to dance. in the end, i dance anyhow. haha. but it was fun k.

Today is the last day for the Study Hall Students in Singapore. They went back to India in the afternoon. Stepping into the airport, my heart feel so sad. walk in and approach them. When they're checking in, i cried. can't hold back my tears. Rohina went out after checking in. hug me and i cried even more. took pictures with my 3 buddies that i hosted, and some others. before they went in, i hug some of them. Surianj, Dhruv, Sonakshi, Sonali, Vasvi, Naina, Manci, Gandharv and Parth. he gave me a cuddling hug. haha. i'm the one who made many ppl cry. everyone tried comforting me, but i cried even more. waved to them and boarded the bus to go to school. in bus, i listen to the songs in my phone and cried as i flash back the memories i had with them. went to Geography lesson and can't really concentrate. Some boys keep on doing sth that have link with the Lucknow students. me and Aisyah was so sad and cried. went home and slept. i'm not well now. but tmr still must go to school. it's my 1st prelim paper. after thet paper will be taking my Geography class test, which i miss that day. i guess that's all for today. will try to post pictures asap. i'm so freaking pissed with smn. i want to take picture with this person and she just joined. such an irritance.

p/s: Rohina, Dhruv, Parth, u are missed. Thanks for all the memories and of course the gifts u gave me. i appreciate it. see u guys in 2-3 months time.

Lurve,
Mama
♥A @ 21:12

people, i know it has been sometimes i didn't update my blog. seriously, i'm damn busy with work, school and recently India Buddies. i don't think i can update all the stuffs here but i'll try my best. tmr is a big day. but, in my heart there's just this weird feeling saying that sth will happen tmr. don't know what to do. hmm.. i guess, i will end it here. didn't have enough sleep and will update hopefully soon. haha.
The worst thing now is, i'm missing my boys (Dhruv and Parth) and my girl(Rohina). tmr they'll go back to India. have a safe trip. miss u guys. thanks for the presents.


p/s: Daniel, i've fall for u. (just a joke)

Lurve,
Mama
♥A @ 21:36